JIAYUNN.

2011-12-06T16:32:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

It's gonna be dead soon man.

No one will be reading.

Anyway, my memories are weakening as you know.

I can't really remember what happen.

Tuesday had tk at senkang.

So damn near Yulun's house.

Heng I didn't check in, if not I think Yufei will come down(?).

Wednesday.

Went to dye my hair nearby my house.

I from 1pm sit there till 5plus.

Pro a not (Y).

Come out, colour too bright, don't know if ITE can accept a not.

I bet not.

Heck care.

Thursday, prepare and went down to airport to find Constance.

She end work, she went to eat with her friend, I went around to walk.

She ate finish and we took cab down to downtown.

Went to cathay to buy tickets, wait for Damian to come and he bought popcorns.

We went to watch "Already Famous ; Yi Pao Er Hong."

Hmms, it's quite a nice show.

Quite funny too.

After watching, went to coffee bean to meet brother.

Met, we sat down awhile, and we walk to pasir ris mrt to meet mummy.

Met and we went to eat.

Ate and went down to my uncle's funeral.

Went to bai him and hugged my cousin.

Feel like crying while hugging her, but I held back.

Went to sit down with my brother.

We both like anti-social.

My mother side's children all very close, except us.

Brother keep talk rubbish as usual and make me laugh.

Awhile later my eldest brother came.

Until around 10plus we went off.

We and father took cab home.

In cab, me and my other two brothers keep whatsapp each other.

We from pasir ris laugh until reach home sial. LOL

Home and went to bath, and use comp.

After then went to sleep.

Friday, thought whole day stay at home.

But Liru suddenly very steady, say at night watch movie when it's already 2plus.

Actually we watching movie at saturday, but she changed.

So I went to bath, and prepare.

Prepare and met Liru at Aljunied mrt.

Went down to Tampines.

Reached there and we went to shop around.

Went to century square's toilet, like high class toilet. Lol.

Then we went outside to sit.

Took pictures, blahblahblah.

Then back to mrt to wait for Emily.

Saw Audrey. -.-

I bet she dont recognise me.

Say 6, Emily 6.20 then reached.

We actually wanted to watch at 645, but we changed to 9pm.

We went to buy tickets.

What show? "You're the apple of my eye".

Yes, I watch it again.

And I cried, after watching it, again.

And an unexpected thing happen.

A baby was in the cinema, and he crawls downwards and upwards.

Stand up and fall down.

So damn cute!

After movie we went home.

Home and use comp.

Use and went to bed.

Saturday, woke up and went to prepare.

Prepared and went to Liru's house.

Went there, ate lunch, maple awhile, and helped her paint nails.

Emily very noisy!

Done and we start to watch spongebob.

Liru went to cook maggie.

We three share.

Ate and we watch tv.

Then Liru play maple, I lie on her leg, almost fall asleep and Emily say she going home.

So I woke up unwillingly, and went to take bus home.

Home and went to use comp.

Maple maple maple.

Sunday, woke up late.

Went to prepare and went to eat with my parents.

After that went to Nex.

Accompany brother study at starbucks.

Nex got hello kitty show. LOL.

Brother study and I draw Sunny's anime picture.

Draw halfway and brother say he wants to go home.

So we went to eat pepper lunch first and we went home.

Home and maple.

Monday, which is like yesterday?

Stay home whole afternoon.

At night went to mac with brother cause he want study.

Continue draw my Sunny.

He keep pester me say he want go home, make me draw until it looks weird.

Aiya, dont care.

Next time shall draw on my sketch book.

If I finish drawing the whole book, I wonder who should I give it to. Hmms.

Today, woke up late too.

Went to run just now, bought 100plus and came home watch tv while drinking.

I thought 430, after the show I go bath.

But I came to post first instead of bathing. HAHA.

Chouchou :B

Having flu and dizzy I still go run.

Eye keep watery.

Just now running keep rub away, I bet people thinks I'm crying(?).

After run I feel double dizzy, grr.

I just remembered, I cried on sunday night.

I cried, hard.

It's been long ever since I last cried.

Yea, I cried.

Because I've been acting strong for too long, I'm tired of it.

And guess what.

I actually fall for someone, someone that I shouldn't fall on, someone, impossible.

It's so cruel.

I don't know what to do.

I love him, I need him.

It's, just, so hard.

Man, I feel like telling someone about it.

But I don't know who to turn to.

What's wrong with me ..

Anyway, I shall go and bath now.

Maple at night!

Bye earthlings. :D

2011-11-28T11:08:00.006+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back to post once again.

I don't know how long I haven't post already.

Don't wanna let it dead so, since I'm free, here I am. (:

Well, my memories are not that power yea.

So I shall start from when I'm overseas.

Which is 19 Nov.

Yeps, I went overseas, to Shanghai.

At first say flight is at 10plus in the morning, reached there, they say flight delayed to 1pm.

So we went to have breakfast.

Ate finish, they say flight delayed to 3pm.

So the staffs there provide us a so called VIP room.

Have a "car" drive you there, no need walk.

The room have buffet, eat until you siao.

Have three desktop for you to use.

And even give you a $20 voucher to go eat whatever you want, Subway, Ajisen, etc.

We stayed at the room until I forgot what time and we all went to eat.

Me and cousin went to eat Ajisen.

We gossip gossip yi xia. x:

Ate finish and we went to wait to board the plane.

Board and ta-da~ , fly off.

We reached there around 9plus le.

We followed tour, not ownself shop around.

So we went to hotel to rest.

Hmms, well, can't say is really go shanghai shop.

We went to other places of China, which is see mountains all that.

Kinda boring but, when I climb up to the top of the mountain and look down, look around, I feel, relax, calm.

Quite beautiful. (:

Those whole week jiu shi like that.

Keep sit bus for hours, not minutes leh, is HOURS.

Sometimes 2 hours, sometimes 4 or 5. x.x

No choice, China very big.

Until the last day, we went back Shanghai.

We went to sit ferry, and see and enjoy the beauty.

If you have the chance to go shanghai, at night, you take the ferry.

I can guarantee you, it's so damn beautiful, you won't regret it.

Especially couple, imagine with those beautiful lights, the breeze blowing, and you are hugging your love one.

Like O.M.G, damn romantic.

When I'm there, just by imagining it, I can feel the sweetness.

But too bad I don't have the luck. (:

After the ferry we went back to hotel to rest.

The next morning we went to shop around awhile.

Bought two bags.

We then went to a building, which is 88 stories high.

We took the evaluator up and look down, high. o.o

Purchased two pearl necklace, shall give it to my best friends.

Meeting them soon, miss them, miss the laughters and nonsense. Haha.

After that we went to airport already.

Went in and we all sat down to have a drink, and talk.

Funny much.

Made two new friends (: .

Both of them make me thought of Yulun and Yufei.

Brother and sister.

And the guy gave me a feeling like Yulun.

But, too bad he's only 14.

Express neh, don't want spoil his path.

Anyway, until 4.15, plane fly off~

In plane, the seats behind no people sit.

All go behind, middle seat, which have 3, all lie down there and sleep.

Me? I'm short enough to lie down on the two seatss one. ^^

Wanted to sleep but can't.

So I walked around, and watch show which the tv is playing.

Then went to talk to my new friend, Hui Ting.

She let me thought of my wifey, Yufei.

We talked quite a lot of things.

We stopped when plane is gonna land soon.

Landed, I on my phone, just a second when I on, my brother called me.

I'm like so happy when I reached Singapore!

Happy cause I can use comp, I can use phone etc.

Not happy because I'm back to usual life again, having all thoughts in my mind. x.x

Anyway, parents bought liquor and we went to take cab home.

Home and gave my brothers thing that I bought for them (:

My second brother took a desktop back from his company and set up everything nicely for me to use.

I love my brother :B

After that we went to mac and eat.

He say mac now you buy just nuggets, they give you another box of nuggets for free. o.o

So we went.

He ordered 2 meals plus the nuggets, I cannot finish. x.x

Ate finish, we went home.

Brother changed and he went to drink with his friends.

I stayed home use comp awhile and went to sleep.

Damn sleepy.

Until the next day woke up and use comp again.

Downloaded itunes.

Tried to download maple but cannot, I don't know why.

Then went to bath and prepare.

Prepared and went out to eat with parents as usual.

Ate finish and we went to salon, I wanted to cut hair, if not my fringe very irritating.

Cut my back hair short a bit too. ><

I wonder who will see through that I've cut my back hair shorter a bit, hmms.

I see my hair now I feel so sad sial, my hair ):

But I've no choice, those parts spoil already, need cut away.

Cut finish and took bus home.

Home and my brother helped me downloaded maple, now can play le!

He ask me train him. HAHA

He wanted to train a priest at aqua.

I prepare awhile and me and brother went to Nex.

We went there de starbucks.

He ask me accompany him study.

So he study, I do crossword puzzle.

We drank hot chocolate, damn niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

He ordered big one, which I drink half only, cannot finish x.x .

I do halfway and went to play ipad. x:

Until 10pm we went down to eat our dinner, Wendy's.

Ate and we took mrt home.

Home and I restore my phone.

Which means, yea, un-jailbreak my phone, update to 5.0.1.

Though jailbreak can do a lot of things, but what I don't like is, very lag.

Original is always till the best for me (:

Done and slowly put songs in.

Put halfway I super sleepy, went to sleep.

Just now woke up and continue to do, and I'm done. (:

Just less videos, shall ask my brother tonight.

Oh, and I heard a bad news.

My mother's younger sister's husband, which is my uncle, passed away /: .

Before going overseas, I went to visit him, he still can walk, talk, etc.

After I come back, my mother told me he can't walk nor eat.

Until yesterday night, he passed away.

I bet my xiao yi, her daughters must be damn super upset right now /: .

Sigh.

Life, is that short.

So, we must cherish and treasure every moment, everyone around you.

Especially your love ones.

Learn to appreciate what you have.

You don't and won't know what will happen at the next second.

Maybe I will get hit by car, or electric shock etc.

But most people don't understand that.

Anyway, staying at home.

If mother work until 3pm, I want go dye hair, again.

I ownself dye liao like not obvious at all, only under the sun or light then have.

Shall think about it.

Brother ask me accompany him study later again. x.x

I see how also~

Ok, I don't know what else to say already.

Though I have, but, no one reads my blog anyway.

Shall go watch anime, or maybe maple.

Bye earthlings. :D

2011-10-31T16:04:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma kinda bored at home so I decided to come and post.

My last post was like, a week ago?

I try to refresh my memories.

I'm getting old here, memory failing.

Tuesday, home maple?

Watch my brother play 'Dead Island', fun fun.

Dyed my hair too.

But not really very obvious, under the light then you can see a bit of colour.

I feel like going salon dye an obvious, natural colour.

Wanted to reborn too.

Shall think about it.

Wednesday, it's Deevapali, whatever it's spelled.

Went to eat with family, ate and we went to suntec to window shopping.

Bought a pair of shoes, thanks mummy! :D

We then went to buy luggage for our trip to Shanghai in about two weeks time.

19Nov-26Nov.

Man, I don't feel like going, but I don't have a choice. ):

But it's ok, I've no boyf now, no one to miss, so I can just try to enjoy myself, hopefully.

I like my luggage, mickey mouse~

I know very childish but I like the design and the colour.

This year gotta carry my own luggage, always mummy carry.

Bought fbt too.

After that we head back home.

Painted my nails.

My brother say not nice! :@

I also not study manicure, not professional of cause not so nice.

Tsk.

Rest awhile and parents went to grandma house.

Me and brother went to hawker buy dinner and went back home to eat.

Ate and went to maple to sort things out with Emily and Liru.

So we decided to watch movie the next day.

Thursday, morning woke up maple awhile and went to prepare.

I feel like a different me.

Liru also feel the same. Lol.

Went to take mrt down to dhoby to meet them.

Met and we went to collect ticket.

What show we watching?

Paranormal activity 3.

They say want watch NC16 show, so we watched that.

Emily like not scare at all, she still can laugh. Lol.

Liru scare until she took out her ipod and blast music using ear piece.

While me?

I didn't blast, I didn't laugh, I is jitao stone.

There's no ghost face actually.

It's just like something drop or what and scare you that's all.

But the show is not bad.

I got kanna chua tio a lot of times.

After the show we went to eat pepper lunch.

Ate and we went to shop around.

Then went to arcade, wanted to play pump but, in the end didn't. /:

We actually want to take new-print, in the end also didn't.

Met brother at orcahrd at 630.

Emily and Liru went back home.

Met brother and went to a salon, he want to cut hair.

Just cut one hair only, $50 fly. (Y)

Thought of reborning at there.

But guess what, for reborning, it's $400 ++ wor.

I see the price my eyes went wide. LOL.

We then took mrt to Aljunied and ate our dinner there.

Ate and went to ntuc to buy drink.

Bought and we walked back home.

Home bath and rest.

Friday, I think I stayed home the whole day, maple-ing. Lol.

So there's nothing much.

Saturday, brother didn't went to school.

We went to ntuc, we bought vegetables, carrot, potatoes, a lot a lot.

And we went home.

Yes, we are cooking.

He take care of the soup, I take care rest of the things.

He cook halfway and he went to play game, li hai right.

Then I've to do everything myself.

Cook finish and went to bath.

Tada~

We eat dinner together.

Ate, he wash.

I cook, he wash. Haha.

Washed and he went to play game, while I use his ipad.

He say see me so ke lian, nothing to do, he let me play maple.

He went to watch show.

I level and I return him, cause I want to watch him play 'Dead Island'.

He play till 1plus and we went to sleep.

Next morning woke up and play maple again.

Brother went USS.

Awhile later went to prepare and went out to eat with parents.

Mummy saw how I wear.

She was like so amaze.

She keep say "woah, you wear like that don't look like 16 leh, like 19, 20 like that."

Haha, old liao.

After we ate and we went to marina.

Went to body shop and bought a serum.

We then went to Kenko.

What's that?

A place for massage, a place for people to relax themselves.

Father sat a cafe and drink coffee, while me and mummy went to relax ourselves.

We had the fish spa first.

Yes, which means you put your leg inside the water and the fish will come and eat your dead skins.

At first very excited to go in leh, when we got in, we both are afraid of putting our legs in.

HAHA.

Mummy keep put in and quickly take out.

I think the fish all pekchek already, LOL.

You just lift your legs above the water, all the fish all standby waiting for you to put in.

I keep don't dare put in, for the last 5-10 mins I don't care already, I put in and didn't took out.

All the fish eating my dead skins.

A bit itchy nah, put very relaxing.

After that we had leg massage.

It's super relaxing I can guarantee that.

Especially when they press until those sour kind of pain, best. (Y)

Long time let yourself relax a bit it's a good thing. (:

Finished and we went back home.

Home maple awhile and went to grandma house.

Watch tv, then use ipad, and went to ntuc again.

Bought a lot of things.

Carry everything and walk back home.

Suddenly Ian take to me wor.

Surprisingly. Lol.

And I start to think about the past, when me and him were together.

I still remember I almost cried everyday because of him.

We were together only for a month and he dumped me.

Haha.

I got used to it, I'm always the one who is being dumped. (':

He say he want jio me back.

I'm shock but I don't believe it.

I dreamed of Yinhong, o.o .

I dream of Yulun, Kendrick, Junwei.

Just all weirdo people.

I swear I didn't thought of them before I got to bed.

They just appear nowhere in my dreams o.o .

But I forgot what I dream about.

Anyway, home and I tried to sleep, but I couldn't.

Went living room to watch tv with mummy awhile and went back to sleep.

Today morning mummy ask me accompany her see doctor.

So we went polyclinic.

It's super long, ipad going no battery, I didn't charge my phone.

Well, my phone is off for around a day already, I don't intend to on it.

Cause no one would find me.

And I dont have to wait and always looking at my phone.

Hoping he will text me.

A miracle would happen.

I know it's impossible that's why I dont wanna on it.

Back to story, I don't have my phone, ipad no battery, I is bored dao~

I'm going insane.

Without music I will die. x.x

See finished and we went to eat.

Ate and we went to buy don't know what and we went home.

Home and mummy went to play mahjong.

While me stay home, maple maple maple.

Just now dozed off and woke up, maple maple maple.

Now I came to post, I think I'm going back maple maple maple again.

Bo bian, I nothing to do, so I keep maple maple maple.

I only played for a week plus and I'm level 58 liao, hosehbo. (Y)

Hope I can get third job before I go overseas.

Today's post, won't include any feelings of me now.

I will keep these feelings to myself.

No pictures of words to show too.

Keep to myself means keep to myself. (:

No one will read my blog anyway.

Who still blogs nowadays? Very few.

I'm one of the very few.

I've no one to turn to, so, blogging has already become a habit of mine.

Though I'm lazy at times, I still bring and drag myself to do so.

Hmms, I guess there's nothing to write about anymore.

Oh and this person, wa like seriously, your presence irks me man!!

Come on lah, get a life bitch! -.-

Ok that's all.

Love you guys~

P.S: The picture is big because I use ipad to take it. ^^

2011-10-24T13:47:00.002+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Shall continue from last post.

Wednesday, didn't went to school.

Morning wake up, use comp awhile and prepare.

Met Liru and Emily at parkway, 1pm.

We went to see things and went to play pool.

We is jitao from 1plus play until 4plus.

Got one guy very random.

He suddenly came to me and he say his friend want my number.

I was stunned.

I stare at him and I gave him.

Wait, don't get me wrong wor, I gave him my facebook only.

Want my number? Wait I get to know you more which I don't think will happen. Lol.

He ask me play with his friend I keep shake my head.

Awhile later they went off, and he came to me and say want shake hand.

Of cause, I kept shake my head also, I don't dare.

But when I get home and think about it, I feel guilty and bad.

He just wanted to be friends with me, I should have shake hands with him. Tsk.

Ahhhh, anyway, it's already over.

4plus and we went to eat mac, like again. ._.

I eat until I scare already.

Ate and we went to walk around.

We went into a pet shop, hamsters, so damn cute can!

Not just hamsters, the puppies, like O.M.G.

I wish my house can keep a puppy, but father don't allow. ):

Keeping a puppy in house is actually a not bad thing.

At least they are loyal, never will betray you.

They will keep you accompany whenever you feel lonely.

They will always be there whenever you are sad and cry.

Sigh. /:

We then went to buy dopoki.

Bought and we went back play another hour of pool.

Played and we took bus home.

Home and went to bath.

Then I forgot what I did.

Thursday, I also forgotten.

Friday, I morning woke up and went to try download maple again.

Which last few days I keep fail to download it.

But friday the internet suddenly become so fast.

I from 11plus download until 1plus and it's done. o.o

Install and tada~ , I started playing maple once again.

It's been so long ever since I last played maple.

That was like when I was primary 6?

My account don't know fly where, Liru helped me create a new one.

Played the whole day.

Saturday, morning played maple awhile and went to prepare, went tk.

During break we played dai-di.

We laugh like hell sial.

After tk and we went home.

Home bath and maple!

Played maple until I forgot what time and went to sleep.

Morning woke up, maple again! HAHA

Until 1pm went prepare and went tk again.

Nothing much about it too.

Home bath and maple again. Heeeeeeeeeee!

Level up one level first, then went to sleep.

Today morning woke up and went to school.

I one whole week didn't went to school leh, pro or what. Lol.

Had bio, then see lower sec play interhouse for captain's ball.

Man, I feel like playing also.

930 recess until 11.

11am we had Junior Chef.

Yes, which means we were at kitchen cooking.

I went one day and I'm so dulan.

Especially the boys.

Chopping board, utensils, everything wash and never clean dry, just put it there.

Table use already also don't want wipe.

Floor dirty don't want clean.

In the end is me and Liru clean up the whole kitchen.

Read properly, not just our area, is the WHOLE kitchen.

Cute or what, grr.

Clean and we went home.

Went to top up card and took mrt home.

Home now and I came to post.

At night my brother want use comp.

I'm going maple to mc with Liru they all.

And I gave my words to someone that I will post today.

Oh ya, nowadays when I sleep, I dream of a lot of people.

Alvin, Junwei, Jason, Kendrick, Kianpoh, Damian, Constance.

Like seriously, what am I thinking?

Aiya, dreams always wont come true.

Right now, I'm carefree.

I don't feel anything at all.

But I know there's a small little spark in me.

I just need someone to see it, do it, make that spark grow into a firework.

I know very chim but yea.

Anyway, whatever, I can't be bothered about love now.

I'm going to bath and time to maple!

If you are playing, I'm at aquila, name, VeraHosehbo.

Bye earthlings!

2011-10-18T13:54:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Last posted a week ago yea.

I went paya lebar to eat subway with my brother.

Ate and we came back home.

Home and watch show.

Mummy came back with lots of things as she went bedok's night market.

I'm full so I went to sleep instead.

Wednesday woke up and prepare go school.

Had PE.

Cute or what, we played basketball.

After that we play a game with a don't know what.

It's quite fun, because we played as a class.

Then we had English, recess.

Blahblahblah.

And guess what, me, Liru and Emily skip class.

Last two periods is maths, and school ends at 245.

We three went off.

Emily went home.

Me and Liru went to market there to order cake.

For?

For Emily's birthday!

We're giving her a surprise.

We ordered and she accompany me walked back home and she wait for me to prepare.

Prepared and went to paya lebar to buy lunch.

We saw Alvin, Jingxi, Kianpoh they all.

Me and Liru were like wtf?

Bought lunch and we went to buy gongcha, worse is they went there too.

Damn, I feel so damn guilty.

It's my ever first time to skip lessons. ._.

Bought and we went to take mrt back to kallang and went Liru's house.

Ate and we start to work.

Trying to make Emily a board of wishes.

Liru make the frame, I use paper and draw out alphabets.

And I drew one sylvester for her, cute right. Haha.

Drew and colour it.

Done and went to take bus home.

Home bath and went to sleep.

Thursday, me, Liru and Emily didn't went school.

Early morning we meet 10 at bugis.

We went to eat breakfast together.

Ate and we went to shop around.

We went to play arcade, shop again and we went to play pool.

It's their first time play.

One day teach two people play pool, cool or what.

But they are fast learner, I teach a bit only they know how to play already.

Not like me, kns, learn 1 time also don't know how to play.

Need learn a few times then know how to play. Tsk.

We played 2 hours plus and we went to buy koi.

Bought and Emily went to take bus home.

We told her me and Liru also going home, she believed but in the end we went to buy present for her.

Bought and we went to take mrt, back to Liru's house.

Continue with her board.

Had dinner at her house, and we suddenly talk about grandparents.

Ah, I miss my grandmother's cooking.

I used to eat dinner at her house everyday.

I miss my favourite soup, fish, vegetables, everything!

Memories flashing back~

We then start to talk about when we were primary school.

Always need partner a guy, then must hold hand.

I always geh siao make my hair don't want hold.

Cause I dont like my partner, he's malay/indian I forgot.

Sorry I'm not being racist ok!

Then told her I like a guy when I was in primary 1 or 2.

I can still remember his name, Kaiyew. Haha.

Got another also, KaiBoon.

I still remember primary school always need show and tell.

Wtf memories.

Time flies yea, I'm going ITE next year already.

I can bet my N'level can't pass the requirements.

Anyway, we ate finish and we back to do her board.

Liru's dog keep stick to me.

He even sat on my lap and sleep sial.

Cute him, but eh very pervert. ._.

Done and I went back home, bath and sleep.

Friday went school.

Ok it's boring cause there's nothing for us to do.

After school Emily went home.

Me and Liru went to collect the cake and we went back to take mrt.

Damn suey, I saw Yulun for like 3 times by coincidence in a day. -.-

While walking to mrt saw my cousin.

By right is meet her at mrt.

Liru went home first, me and cousin went to bedok to buy black shoe for work.

Bought and went back home.

Home prepare and went down to Liru's house.

Do birthday card for Emily and we went to take bus down to her house.

We all met at a place and we went up to surprise her.

Although she didn't cry or something, but I'm sure she's touch, somehow. (:

Everyone gave her presents.

Aww, I wish my birthday can like that too.

With a big birthday cake, many presents, lots of birthday wishes and cards.

I think I'll be so damn touched.

Sigh ): .

Say until birthday, I'm turning 17 soon, in just 2 months plus.

Haha, time really flies.

We all sat down and had a chat, took photos, awhile later we went back home.

Went all the way back to Liru's house there and took bus home.

Home bath and went to sleep.

Saturday woke up and stayed home until 1plus and went to prepare.

Prepare and went out at 3.

Went to downtown east and went to return shirt to JustAcia.

Return and went down to tiong bahru.

Took bus down to Holiday Inn Atrium.

For? Work.

As banquet.

You know, people's wedding and people help you pour drink all that? Yea that one.

I do one day and I jitao is dulan.

Not because the work very tiring or what, it's ok actually.

It's cause of people who works there.

Like seriously, they assign me with one auntie.

She just went to take her own things, without teaching me what to take and do.

I blur blur stand there, later others come scold me say why aint you doing anything?

I first day work sial, then the auntie just walk away.

And she thought I'm china, wtf. -.- _l_

The table I'm in charge got a guy looks cute. ><

He's like, Hui Kai, Kianpoh and Kendrick add together that kind of feel.

Like ohmygod, memories are flashing back.

The bride is damn pretty!

Man, they are so sweet, how I wish I have a boyf like hers. ):

Oh well, for now being single is not bad.

But learning to be alone isn't easy.

How I wish someone can just appear right beside me, pamper, hug me and say, "You're not alone, I'm always with you."

I must be dreaming, who in the world will do that ya, haha.

After work and went to take bus home.

Went to eat mac with brother and went home.

My leg is jitao pains everywhere because of that pathetic new shoe. ._.

Home bath and went to sleep.

Sunday woke up and prepare.

Went to eat with parents as usual.

After eating and we went to Ikea at Tampines.

Went there to walk around awhile and brother wanted to buy a shelf.

He thought it can fit into the cab but it's too long.

So we went home.

Home and elder brother went to borrowed car from our uncle.

We went all the way down there again to buy the shelf and went home.

Mummy went to buy dinner.

Pig's kidney, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my favourite! HEEEEE!

Home ate, watch tv awhile, and went to sleep.

Monday, Liru didnt went to school, I also never.

Although I already woke up, but I went back to sleep again. x:

Sleep until 10plus woke up, use comp awhile and went to prepare.

Met Liru at Aljunied mrt at 1pm.

We waited for Emily and Brenda as we going Brenda's house.

Angie and Leah also going.

So we took mrt down to Kembangan and walk to her house.

Reached and we play with her dogs.

Three of them, they are so damn cute!

One always emo, one very scare, another one very active.

The emo and active one always fights and I don't know why.

But they are really cute.

After awhile we went to a room to play ps3.

It's so damn big, the screen, I say again, it's screen not tv leh.

We played racing, you really sit on the chair and drive.

We played tennis, volleyball, etc.

Like wii but it's not.

Haha, we had lots of fun and laughter!

I don't know what I did can make all of them laugh like hell man. LOL.

Those never see me crazy before, too bad.

I think you'll be shock if you see me play and joke with them, HAHA.

Until around 630 we went home.

Met brother at paya lebar.

We went foodcourt and eat dinner, guess what, I ate pig's kidney again.

Heee! Also say it's my favourite liao. :3

We ate and went to buy gongcha.

Home and he ask me to help him with his shelf.

We build, clean and laugh, joke all the way.

And he very cute.

It's his shelf, he ask me to help him arrange his things. Tsk.

Done and we went to bath and sleep.

Sleep until 9plus woke up, use comp awhile, and I went back to sleep.

Sleep until now woke up and came to post.

Downloading maple, Liru ask me play.

Means I must start from the very beginning.

Lazy train, but I stay home also nothing to do, so I download try out lor.

It's been very long ever since I last played maple.

I still remember I always woke up in the middle of the night to chiong level. Lol.

But I don't know my asiasoft liao sial, tsk.

Nevermind, download first.

I don't think I'm going back to school this week.

Next week I don't know sial, Junior Chef.
Will spend most of the time in the kitchen.

But I want dye hair!

Shall go back a day and see how.

It's soon going to be the end of secondary school.

Sigh, will miss it. ):

Well, I guess he's with his new girlf now.

Hugging and kissing each other.

Although he was once mine, and I wanted him to be mine again but I guess this time, he gave up.

So I'll give up too.

I must learn to be alone!

Because in whatever I do, I'm always alone.

And always the one who carries all burdens and pains all by myself.

I will break away all these burdens, pains and feelings, some day.

It's so tiring to cry every night to sleep.

Argh!

I shall go and bath and find my brother later.

Bye earthlings.

2011-10-11T15:03:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post, cause I've nothing to do.

Well, I've forgotten what had happen already.

Last week had N'level all the way, except for Wednesday and Friday.

Maths and Geo is jitao cui.

I'm so gonna fail those two subjects. /:

Saturday had tk.

Like sian only.

Whole day at Yishun with Yvonne they all.

After that went home, bath and sleep.

Sunday woke up and went to prepare.

Went out with parents to go eat.

Ate and went to cut hair.

My fringe is so short, a bit not used to it, but at least it wont keep cover my eye.

Cut and went to amk to meet Constance they all.

Went to buy iphone cover as the old one spoil already.

Thanks constance for helping me choose a nice cover, I like it somehow. (:

Changed my screen protector too, the old one spoil too.

Although it's normal like any other phone but it looks nice!

After then I went to paya lebar to meet brother to eat dinner.

Ate and we buy gongcha and went home.

Home and we watch "Supernatural".

Hey, if you are able to find this show, I can guarantee you it's a super interesting show to watch.

It's about God, Hell, Lucifer, Angel, everything.

Watched halfway and went to sleep.

Monday woke up and went to school for POA paper.

Had paper 1 first, then had paper 2.

After that paper, hooray for me!

N'level is over!

Went home and went to sleep awhile.

Woke up, went to bath and went down to eunos for tk.

After that went home bath.

Played texas with my brother awhile and he wants to sleep.

I wanted to borrow his ipad and he tell me he want to hug it to sleep.

I took his pillows and he keep hug his ipad!

We had a really fun and crazy fight. Haha.

Then we suddenly talk about when we were young.

Our father comes in and saw us playing when we're suppose to sleep.

We laugh like hell man.

We then sleep and morning they went to work.

I'm alone at home.

Well, morning went down to basketball court and played basketball alone, under the rain.

Until 2plus then come back.

I'mma gonna take a nap now, my neck and arm hurts now. /:

I don't know why nowadays I keep cut until my hand.

One finger skin comes out and it's pain.

Another finger kanna burn by hot water.

Another finger close window too hard and giap until my finger blue black.

Hosehbo. (Y)

Anyway, since he already gave up, then I wouldn't hold back anymore.

This is what he chosen, not me.

But if he let me knows he's not giving up, and as long as he's trying, I'm staying.

He won't do that (:

Feel kinda lonely now.

It isn't a bad thing.

Ok I shall go take my nap now.

Let the photos speaks. (:

Will post again when I feel like and have things to say. ^^

Bye earthlings.

Edited.

Hi earthlings.

I dont know why I came back here.

I didn't take my nap.

Went to bath and prepare to go paya lebar find my brother.

I just want to come here and say this.

I love you, I really do.

But if you aint gonna save and do anything, the worse part will come.

Just remember, I do really love you my love.

That's all, head off to paya lebar now!

Bye earthlings.

2011-10-04T18:18:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Like I said, whenever I'm sad, I will come and post.

Well, here I am.

Sunday morning went out to eat with parents as usual.

Ate finish, went to walk about awhile.

brother at first wanted to go Orchard, in the end didn't go.

So they all went home, I went to grandma house to do things.

Do finish my things and watch tv.

My grandma thought I studied finish secondary school. Lol.

Until 530 went down to Kallang to meet boyf.

We met until around 7 and I went home.

Home and went down to Aljunied mac to eat with my brother as he want the monopoly thing.

Ate finish and went back home.

Home, bath everything and went to bed.

Morning 8plus woke up and prepare to go school.

I did a last minute revise.

Had chemistry paper first.

Hmms, it wasn't hard, wasn't easy too.

After the paper, I've no time to revise my biology.

The paper wasn't hard nor easy too.

I just hope this two paper add up I can at least get a pass.

After the paper and I went back home.

Home and went to sleep because I dont wanna feel what I've been feeling.

Woke up and my brother called me to go bugis with him to collect his books.

Went there, collected, and we walked to Suntec.

We went there to eat Just Acia.

Kinda miss my work during June holiday, but it's tiring. ):

but yet, sometimes I wish I could go back and work to occupy my time.

Staying at home whole day just makes me feel so lonely, sad etc.

You guys must be wondering, "where's your boyf?"

Him? He's busying with his friends.

He will never put me his first priority.

Then why not I go out with my friends too?

No, because I put him my first priority, and I don't want to have clashes in between.

So I always make myself free just waiting for him to spend his time with me.

but I was wrong.

Anyway, after we ate finish we went back home.

Home, watch tv awhile, and off to bed.

Cried myself to sleep.

I don't know why, my tears just flow out itself.

Today morning woke up, I thought my paper starts at 8am, in the end I check, it's 2pm.

I was halfway to school, I turn back home instead. ._.

Home and accompany my brother go polyclinic see doctor.

We then went to eat and walked home.

Home and went to sleep awhile, until 12plus woke up and prepare.

1pm left house and met Liru at mrt.

We walked in and Mr Chin lend me his calculator.

My brother left mine at his office, angry.

Had maths paper 1 today.

It was ok but I think I had a lot of mistakes.

My 3 marks fly, just because I didn't have/bring a mathematics instrument to draw bisector.

After the paper and I came back home.

Home and went to bath.

Father ask us to go grandma house eat, like sian only.

As I mention, yeh I'm sad.

Why?

Well, it's rather disappointment.

He told me yesterday after he had make his phone, he will meet me.

but just then, he told me he was playing pool with his friend.

Like, I've been waiting the whole day for him to ask me out.

It's not just today, it's almost everyday.

End up he always go out with his friend.

I thought this time he had already changed, but I was wrong.

I don't know how to express my feelings now.

It's all mixed up.

I dont know what to do anymore!!

Seriously, what am I.

Why can't anyone make me feel important!? Just when I wanted you to make me feel that way ..

I miss his voice, waiting every night for his call.

I just miss him so much, yet he doesnt.

I've been repeating myself again and again and again.

I'm gonna break down, gonna explode soon!

Why am I always doing things alone, when I have a boyf? ..

YOU ALL DONT KNOW HOW I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW.

This sucks, seriously sucks!

I dont wanna feel this anymore!

I'm gonna ignore the world for now.

I'm not gonna touch my phone, I'm off-ing it.

blame and angry for all you all want!

I cared and nobody cared about me!

So tonight I'm not gonna care anything!

bye!

2011-10-01T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post as a promise to my boyf.

Tuesday, well, nothing much happen.

I think I forgotten.

Wednesday, had pe.

Hey, it was fun!

We had 4 teams, 2 team play basketball first, the other 2 play soccer.

After don't know how long we exchange.

I played basketball first.

When practicing, Jonell throw the ball and it hits my head.

Tsk.

but my team won. ^^

We then went to play soccer.

I score leh. -clapclap-

Shi An say to Xin Hao who is the goalkeeper that he salute him. LOL.

I was worn out.

I kick until Shi An's leg and my poor leg is blue-black.

Damn Alvin, he kicked the ball so damn hard and it just hit straight at knee.

My knee is jitao whole red and feel like burning.

After pe we went back class.

Mr Chin was standing at the door, he suddenly say, "Your soccer quite good ah."

I stare at him for a second and say, no? LOL.

930 we had recess.

Then we had bio blahblahblah.

245 end school and went back home and I forgot.

Oh, I was watching U-KISS Vampire.

Eli is super shuai and funny~

Then I forget already.

Thursday, didnt went to school.

Early morning woke up and went to prepare.

Why?

My dear brother took leave and he ask me go city square mall with him.

For? Cause it's Miss A's fan meet.

We went to line up to get their autograph.

We from 1030am sit there till 630pm, pro a not. (Y)

Finally they came and ohmy, they are so pretty!

From pictures, it's a two different person.

Min is so cute!

And I shook here hand, ah~

Took their autograph and we went home.

Home bath and sleep.

Friday went school.

Had chemistry first.

First time she let us go off 5min earlier.

Thanks to Alvin, keep say it's last lesson so let us off early. Lol.

Totally like no people, only our class and Hope 5-2.

Cause the rest of the levels are having their EOY exams.

After recess went back class, then went to toilet.

Me, Liru, Emily, brenda and Leah were sitting inside even though the bell had rang.

Why? Cause it's POA. /:

Emily and brenda went back first.

Liru and me we sat awhile more and went back class.

Mr Sim ask where we went, we both diamdiam give a innocent face. HAHA.

Then there's this teacher came in.

I think he's called Mr Lim(?).

He teach I jitao don't know what is he talking.

He talk very fast, pronounce not very accurate, and talk very loud, irritating.

After POA is math.

Like boring only.

Me and Liru at there play Kart Rider, wth right. LOL.

Had 2 periods english and went home.

Home and went to bath, prepare.

Went down to katong to meet boyf.

And we went to Kallang sit sit chat chat.

Had so much fun and laughter with him.

Until around 5, took mrt down to Tanah Merah.

Went to my brother's office to meet him.

We then walk down to Expo as it's quite near.

We went to eat first, sit down awhile.

7pm and it's time for Miss A's showcase!

It's the first time I get to see a real concert.

Watching them dance with your own eyes is really different from what it's on video.

And I don't know what's wrong with people.

I know they are idol, you like them.

but can't you just stick your butt to the chair?

Why must you keep stand up, blocking my view.

And can't you all be gentle a bit?

I know you want the toy that they've thrown, but there's no need to push people so hard that they fall down seriously.

They are really talented, how I wish I was one of them. ):

I must be dreaming a impossible dream. Haha.

Anyway, after the concert, brother actually ask me go drink with him.

Well, he can drink but I can't.

In the end we didn't go.

We went to Aljunied mac to eat.

I saw people that I don't wanna see. ._.

Ate and went home.

Home, bath and went to bed.

Today morning woke up, continue watch my U-KISS Vampire.

brother went out to collect book from his friend.

He actually ask me go out with him, but I told boyf meet in the morning.

In the end we didn't.

brother came back home and I haven't go out, that was like 12 already.

brother use a angry voice say ask you pei me awhile only also cannot, see, you also haven't go out.

I got pissed.

First, I pushed away the agreement to my brother that I will pei him a few days ago.

Just because yesterday me and boyf said we will meet in the morning.

He is pissed and he attitude me. ._.

Next, because he needs to repair his bike, he delayed until 1plus 2.

Actually I dont feel like going anywhere already, but because of boyf, I went down to Kallang.

I was pissed at first, but after seeing him, I don't.

Sat down and chat.

Until 3plus we went off.

He went home cause he say he's tired.

So I went home, home and went down to bugis to find my brother.

We waited for the books to be printed and ready.

Collected it and he went home to put the books, while I wait at the mrt.

We then went down to amk for Suki Sushi, in the end it was closed. ._.

We went to see things first and we went all the way down to singpost.

Ate and we went to buy Gong-cha.

I prefer Koi lor, it's my favourite anyway. -wink-

We then took mrt back home.

Home and went to bath and I came to post.

boyf went for a wedding.

If not I will be like hugging him all day long~

Hee.

I envy those who are able to wear a wedding dress.

How I wish one day I will be able to wear it too. ):

I envy couples too, but at least love still works.

Though if it's not for me, but for others. (:

Well, I'm happy to say, he came back to me.

And he is much closer, sweeter to me.

Though there's times that I don't feel his love as he always reply me with an "ok" when I talk sweet to him.

but I'm happy to have him mine once again.

I hope this time, we can always stay close and never let go each other anymore.

I will definitely try my very best to treat him well.

I feel like I'm the "boyf" instead of him. ._.

Always go down find him, sweet with him, tell him everything, hmms.

Anyways, I don't know what to say.

I can't think of any now, brain a bit not working.

I just want to say that I love him, and I'm really happy.

Thanks dear for staying with me.

For loving me.

For being by my side once again.

For being mine again.

Sorry that I'm not perfect.

Sorry that I'm not as pretty as other girls are.

but I know that my heart, my love and care is never will be less than them for you.

Sarang haeyo cha-gi. ^^!

I will post again next time.

28th's. (L)

2011-09-26T15:06:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

It's been quite long ever since I last posted isn't it.

Well, was kinda lazy to post, plus there's no one reading it anyway.

A lot of things had happen.

Last sunday, 18 Sept.

I went to ite college west with Emily, Liru and her mother.

It's huge.

It's nice too, especially the kitchen where you bake things.

The hotel was nice too.

We went for their open house and around 4 we went off.

We from Teck Whye LRT took to CCK mrt.

And from CCK mrt we head all the way down to Tampines.

We went to eat first and took shutter bus down to IKEA.

They went there to buy things.

After that we took cab back to Liru's house.

We sit there till 9 and I went home.

Monday, went school blahblahblah.

After school rush back home, bath, tie hair and went down to kallang to meet Liru.

Accompany her to see dentist.

Done and went back her house.

Awhile later went down to dhoby ghaut to find my brother.

We went to watch Johnny English Reborn.

He really joker sial, laughdieme seriously.

Finished and we took mrt home.

Home bath and sleep.

Tuesday I forgot what happen.

Wednesday, I also forgot what happen.

Thursday, I didn't went to school.

Stayed home the whole day, I think.

Friday, after school came home to bath and prepare.

Liru and Emily came my house too.

Until 2pm we went to Liru's house.

Until I don't know what time I went ..

Okay, I forgot.

Or maybe I remember, I don't wanna mention it anyway. (:
Saturday stayed home with brother the whole day.

Well, afternoon he ask me go eat mac with him.

11plus we watched Final Destination 3 at channel 5.

They showed almost everything and they put that show as PG. -.-

Watched finished and went to sleep.

I dozed off at my brother's bed, in the end he went to my bed and sleep. Haha.

Sunday, as usual.

Went to eat with parents, and went down to Liru's house.

Actually wanna go other place buy things, but in the end we didn't.

Stayed there till 8pm and went home.

Home, bath, watch bleach till 10 and went to bed.

I almost couldn't sleep, but I still slept, by force.

Today went school.

Hmms, nothing much happen also.

12.25 we sec 4s had a graduation thing.

Then got prize giving for those had been selected.

That atmosphere, make me can't bear to leave the school.

I miss the teachers, I miss life in secondary school.

Those laughter and fun we had.

But I have to go, aww, sad. ):
Until 2pm they dismiss us for refreshments, I just came back home. o.o

I know it's bad but, I just don't wanna see him by chance, although I wanted to ..

He's really a different guy.

He is someone I wanted to keep by my side so much.

Someone I wanted to hold on tightly.

But people pull him away, and he went, instead of staying with me ..

Man, I can't bear to let him go.

But even if I dont, he already let go.

All I can do now is to let go, and wish him all the best, though I miss him ..

I'll be waiting ..

Why, I know I'm sad over him, but I just don't feel anything about it.

What's wrong with me seriously.

Vera, stay strong!

Being alone isn't a bad thing, even though you need him, you've to hang on!

Though I know I'm not strong, but there's nothing I can do ..

I just need somebody to love.

I need to feel that I'm important to someone, someone like you.

I didn't regret, because I know I've tried my best to fight for him.

It's hurting, knowing he didn't fight for me.

But it's okay, I'm used to it, use to suffering all alone, when I need him to help me carry some of my burdens.

I shall carry everything myself, even if I can't, I have to.

Lonely, I feel like I'm nothing.

Failure every where, being a girlf, being a friend, being a sister, being a daughter, being a student, in studies, in my work.

At first he was my lead, he was the one I'm looking at, the one who give me courage, give me motivations, everything.

But for now, he left.

I'm lost.

It's like, whatever things I do now, it doesn't seem right ..

How I wish he's back by my side, and I mean, only my side, only me.

But I guess it's impossible.

He have his girlf(s).

He wont remember me.

He wont miss me.

He wont really care about me.

He wont even look at me for a second.

He just wont do anymore thing that involves me.

Flashing back.

Looking how innocent and sweet he is.

He message me everyday, take me as his girlf, etc.

And I get to see him almost everyday.

Get to have his hug, his love everyday.

Everyday calls me, joke with me, really very sweet.

All he have in mind was just me and me.

But right now, it's all over.

Why am I crying? I dont know.

I'm crying, yet I don't feel anything.

Why does everyone leave me, when I needed them the most?

I've so much to say, so much to say to him.

Say how much I want him to stay, to love me, but I couldn't express myself ..

Who, who can really sit down right beside me, and listen to me carefully, whole heartily.

I doubt so.

I'll post again if I thought of what else to type.

I realized, whenever I'm sad, I'll blog.

And I always find tumblr that somehow express what I'm feeling, and thinking.

Sigh, what a sad life I'm always having ..

But at least I had a 2 months happy life with him ..

Thanks a million ..

I shall go and take a nap, my eyes are hurting.

Nights earthlings ..

I miss you baby .... A lot .....

2011-09-15T17:05:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Let me continue what happen after I post.

After I post, awhile later my brother called.

He asked me to have lunch with him.

So I went to market to wait for him.

In the end he say he wanna eat mac, so we went.

Saw Gladys, TeckHwee, Jiajing they all.

Like, grr.

Ate and we went back home.

Saw Kianpoh and Shawn too. ._.

Home and watch tv awhile.

Brother started to play ps3, and I watched him play, and read guide for him.

He say I play game use guide he also another one lor!

Went to bath and continue watch him play.

Until 10pm went to eat medicine and sleep.

Today late day.

I woke up on my own at 6am.

I thought I'm late, but I think for a second, it's late day.

So I went back sleep till 7am and I woke up, prepare and went to school.

First period chinese, nothing to do at all.

Stayed in class, until recess.

After recess geography teacher never come, another free two periods.

Talk to Cordelia, Enqi and Adam.

Then it's ss.

Ss also nothing to do, another 2 free periods.

Was like playing Splode all the way.

Next is maths.

Hmms, I did did some questions, after that 210, go home.

Home, went to bath and went down to mrt to meet a blogshop person.

Helped Yufei collect her stitch earpierce and came back home.

Watch Mr Bean and brother suddenly called.

He say tonight cook porridge, ask me cook. Tsk.

So I 6pm then go cook.

Well, I came to post isn't for updating all these stuffs that happened.

I came cause I rather feel disappointed.

Liru they all asked me want go study with them tomorrow a not.

I don't know too.

I'm afraid of being neglected, left out.

Right now, I can't stand anymore feelings.

Family.

All only thinks that all I do is go out, play whole day.

I'm useless, look down on me just because my results ain't good.

Because I'll be going ITE next year, because I'm a bad girl.

All went to work, at night then will be back home.

No one knows how I feel.

No one cares to sit down with me, and understand how I feel.

Friends.

They can be so true, so fake too.

Always trying to joke with them, try to smile as wide as possible.

Try to join in when I'm being left out.

Try to do everything with them, trying to make myself forget about things.

Make myself to smile, try to cover up my pains.

Love.

What's love?

What's love when you just uses words, instead of actions?

What's love when you don't sacrifice yourself, time, etc?

What's love when you don't put yourself in the party's shoe and spare a thought?

What's love if you lie?

What's love if you betray or back-stab?

What's love if you don't even try? To understand, to maintain a relationship, a friendship.

Why am I the only one, the only one who always tries?

Try to hold on as tight as possible.

Try to give in my best when I know it's impossible.

Try to spare a thought for others even though I'll suffer.

Try to sort out my time, in order to accompany, be there for each of them, no matter how lazy, how I don't feel like going out, how tired, how sad I am.

I'll always put up my smile.

Even though it's a fake smile, but it makes them happier.

Always be there, physically whenever they feel sad.

Whenever they need a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on.

But for me?

I cried alone, suffer alone, do almost everything alone.

I cried out to him, so loudly, he chose not to hear it.

Always puts him the priority yet he doesn't.

Give him what he needs, what they need, yet I can't get what I need.

I wanted to cherish every single day, every single hour, minute and second with him.

But no, in everyone's eye, I'm invisible.

I miss when he almost everyday came down to look for me.

Just because he miss me, he wanted to see me, because I'm important than anything else.

I miss him talking to me non-stop, everytime when I look at my phone, his name will always appear.

I miss him telling everyone I'm his girlf, only his.

I miss him holding so much close to his side, never want to leave for a second.

I miss his that innocent, cute little face.

I miss his laughter, his smile.

I miss his gentleness, the importance, the secure from him.

I just miss every single little bit of him.

But now, everything changed.

I want all those memories to be back where it should be, but deep inside I know, it's not gonna to happen.

All he does now, is the opposite of what I've said.

He just keeps pushes me away, when I keep on trying to reach him, don't let him fall.

Because, I never want to do so.

Maybe it's time to make some choosing, some decision.

I don't know how long I can hold on.

I'm getting more tired when he keeps on pushing me away.

I can't feel that he needs me yet I need him.

But why am I trying so hard?

Just simply cause, I love you, boy.

Can you even wake up and face it?

You're just keeping yourself in a box, never wanna come out to see the world.

I'm there, opening it up and pulling you out, but you rejected me, over and over again.

I've feelings too.

I've my patience, I even broke my patience limit and try to continue pulling you.

You don't see it.

You don't stop and take a look at it, look at what I've done for you.

You don't appreciate my love, my care for you.

I'm really lost.

I don't know who am I.

I don't know what's true, what's not, what's dream, what's reality.

I couldn't feel it.

All different kinds of feelings just mixes together.

Mixed feelings, that's what people says.

Everything just come and goes so suddenly, I can't even catch up with it.

I don't know what to do anymore.

The light seems to be so bright 1-2months ago.

But now, it's getting more dimmer.

What I see was just shadows of it.

Will it be bright like it use to, or become a total dark place where I can't see anything?

It's confusing.

I always lift my hopes up, on everyone, on him especially.

But all I got in return was disappointments, over and over.

It's getting way too tired.

I feel so empty in me.

I just need him to understand me a little.

Is that really too much to ask for?

Why is all these happening to me?

To make people stronger, I know.

But, why me, why am I the one going through all these?

Most painful is, I'm walking it alone.

Miracle will never happen on me.

I guess I'll just post until here, though I still have much more things I wanna say.

Shall cook now.

Bye earthlings.

2011-09-14T13:48:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

From the last post.

Saturday I was at home the whole morning and afternoon.

Junwei suddenly message me say he's at Circuit Road.

And he ask me go town with him.

But I rejected. :D

Brother suddenly ask me to cook porridge.

We went down to mini mart to buy can food.

We came up, I wash the rice, add water, got ready everything.

When I tried to start the fire, guess what, no gas.

My brother was like, what the smurf. LOL.

He then went to order mac.

Mac came, we ate, I rest awhile, and went to bath.

Bath and prepare.

And this someone called Russell is damn &($^&*#$^#&()#^$.

Feel like slapping him right in his face.

Anyway, don't care about him.

Prepared and took bus down to tk.

We went there to celebrate mooncake festival.

Okay, to be frank, it's boring!

Totally like nothing to do.

Shouldn't had gone down, should have went out with my brother instead. Tsk.

From 6plus stayed there will 9.

My mother told me my brother at grandma house.

So I met him at Aljunied mrt.

Walked there and he told me he wanted to go eat dinner.

Since I didn't ate anything when I was at tk so I agreed.

We went to market to eat mini steamboat.

Binbin then called me, ask me whether I want go in malaysia with them to eat lok lok anot.

I was like, too late liao, I'm eating with my brother.

Plus if I go in malaysia, I think someone will be angry.

HOR KENDRICK.

Ate and went home.

Home and was talking to Kendrick, watching show on ipad.

Awhile later went to sleep.

Sunday, morning woke up.

Went to bath and prepare.

Went to eat with my parents as usual.

Ate and went to paya lebar to wait for Kendrick.

In the end he came with Mingxuan. o.o

We went to take bus down to parkway kpool.

They played and I sat there watch.

One of them asked me to play, so I tried.

I scored 3 balls continuously.

Like hey, since when I become so good at aiming and playing pool.

But I didn't expect I'll play that well.

I think it's just coincidence, tyco only.

The rest I throw to Kendrick to play, hoho.

Until don't know what time we went to take bus to kallang.

Sat there until a certain time and we went home.

Half way I remembered my brother ask me buy spray.

Alighted at Aljunied and went to buy.

Bought and took bus home.

Home bath and lie on bed.

I flip here and there, I couldn't get into sleep.

Was on the phone with Kendrick until 1am, message until 2plus and he dozed off.

While me?

I was watching tv.

Until 4plus I went to on my brother's comp to watch show.

Had a small talk with Sebas in facebook.

Until 6am I went to bath and prepare to go school.

Went to school, my body is damn tired, but my eye isn't tired at all.

Until 2.10 went home, bath and prepare.

Something clashes and make me damn pissed off.

I went to cook dinner and went down to library to study with Kendrick.

Mingxuan awhile later went off and two of Kendrick's friend came.

I got treated like as though I'm a stranger, invisible.

I feel damn uncomfortable and I walk off to read books.

After studying went to kallang awhile and went home.

Home bath and went to sleep.

Tuesday morning I almost couldn't woke up.

My head hurts and I called my mother.

I told her I'm not going school, and I went to see doctor at 7.30am.

My head was like spinning, I can just doze off anytime.

Waited and waited for the doctor.

I went in, doctor ask what's wrong with me.

I said my head hurts, and I had a little sore throat, it hurts a little.

He check my throat, check my heartbeat.

He jitao give me two days mc when I didn't ask for it.

Didn't expect that, I thought he would just give me a day.

Oh well, went down to take medicine.

I thought he only would give me panadol and cough syrup.

But he also gave me flu medicine. o.o

Do I have flu? I don't know myself too.

Maybe he check until I have? Hmms.

He even gave me antibiotic. ._.

Paid money and it's only 9am.

I went to NTUC to walk around awhile until 9.30.

Why? Because my brother ask me to help him collect his things at sing post.

Can't expect me to go home and go back later on.

9.30am strike and I went to help him collect.

Collected and I walked back home.

Home rest awhile and I went to sleep.

Until 3 I woke up.

And I went to watch show.

I watch the 'Zookeeper'.

Hmms, okay bah, not bad.

530 watch tv until 630 and went to bath.

Bath and was at home using comp and watch tv.

Was on the phone with Kendrick until 11.

I envy Li Teng and Pornsak, they can go Korea. ):

It's a dream place that I always want to go to.

Because my favourite idol, KimJongHyun, SHINee is in Korea.

Well, that's one point.

What's most important is, because Korea is a interesting place.

I like their language.

I know some basic things but what I want to learn is talk in full sentence.

It's not easy I know, but I really hope one day I can learn it.

Hang up phone with Kendrick and I went to sleep.

Morning 6am woke up.

Emily suddenly say she not going school.

So I message Liru, she say she also don't feel like going so she didn't went too.

As for me, I got to choose.

Since they both not going, I shall not go too.

I've excuse, ^^ .

Kendrick then message me, he say he's going assembly so I went back to sleep.

Sleep until 9plus, I got woken by my phone, Liru viber me. ._.

I woke up and went to use comp awhile.

And I saw my brother didn't went work. o.o

He woke up and I ask him, he say he later got exam, so he took leave.

I went back to sleep and woke up at 1.

Brother is out for his exam.

While I stay home, which I came to post as I've nothing to do.

Well, Liru told me she updated her blog ever since January.

I just went to read it not long ago.

Although some I don't really understand because of the way she type it.

But overall I know what is she saying, and how she feel.

She talks about family, friends, love and life.

After reading it, I had this feeling which no words can describe it.

We both have the same horoscope, Capricorn.

Somehow somewhat, she's facing some problem I'm facing too.

We can say like a twin sister, we've too much in common.

We may understand each other a lot but there are some things she cant understand me and I can't understand her.

For now, she can't understand the problems I have in relationship.

Or maybe she do, I'm not sure too.

I get frustrated when I see him message or call.

It gives me a feeling that he's talking to another girl or somewhat.

I feel so damn uneasy, so uncomfortable when he treated me as though I'm a stranger in front of others.

I hate that feeling.

I hate being left out, being neglected, being ignored.

No one in the world likes that too.

So why is almost everyone treating me this way.

When there's a favor to ask me, suddenly treat me good.

But when don't, I'm as though invisible.

Like I don't exist at all.

I'm so tired, not just tired, it's super tired.

Sigh.

I need someone to accompany, as much as possible.

But I don't seem to be important in anyone's eye.

Yea people will care about me, but who is there to REALLY TRULY to care about me?

I doubt anyone would ..

I seems to have things to talk about but I'm totally blank in my mind now.

Okay, shall post until here.

Bye earthlings.

2011-09-09T19:33:00.002+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

Well, I already forgotten much of it.

So I shall start with monday.

It's September holiday!

People had a week, I only had four days.

Monday it's N'level chinese paper first.

Woke up early in the morning, prepare and went down to school.

And I think I wrote out of point.

Smurf it.

Next is paper 2.

Hmms, so-so? Hopefully I can pass my chinese.

I only know my chinese oral cannot make it like seriously.

After paper I went home.

Home and went to take a nap.

Woke up, bath and its time to study!

Switched off my phone from 5plus to 10plus.

10plus on my phone just for alarm.

Went to sleep after that.

Tuesday, morning had listening compre.

It's like so cool.

Instead of CD, it's broadcast!

I forgot which FM already.

After paper went home continue study my social studies.

Paper of that starts at 2pm.

My husband came my house.

We studied together.

but halfway I cannot take it anymore, I went to lie down awhile.

Half an hour later I woke up and continue to study.

Until 1pm, took bus back to school.

2pm, paper starts.

First thing I do is to look at the SEQ.

I remembered I did study Conflict Of Northern Ireland.

but I was like, jitao blank. ._.

I just keep repeat everything I know.

Sigh.

Just hope I can get higher than my prelim marks.

After paper went back home again.

And I went to find Kendrick I think.

8 went home and forgot what I did.

Watch tv then sleep I think.

Wednesday, went school.

It's English paper.

My paper one, also cannot make it.

I think I wrote out of point too.

I don't think I can pass my english, smurf it.

Paper 2, some are easy, some are not.

After paper, went home.

First thing I do was off my phone, and went to sleep.

That was like 1pm.

The whole day I was at home watching show.

Until 11pm then I switch on my phone.

I'm so proud of myself.

I can, not touch my phone for such a long period of time! Hoho.

Awhile later then I sleep I think.

Thursday, finally I can wake up late.

Had tk that day.

Was thinking to meet Kendrick awhile, then fly down to tenah merah to meet my mother.

On the way to find him, brother called.

He ask me accompany him go cut his hair.

So I called mother and tell her I'm not going tk.

I went back home.

Didn't meet him, because he said there's no need to meet him already.

Stay home watch show until 530 and went down to Orchard.

I helped him choose hair style.

First time see is weird but see long already, hey, it's not bad actually. (:

Went to buy hair dye and went to eat.

Ate and we went back home.

Home and I helped him dye his hair.

A bottle he only use like 1/4 of it.

The rest throw away leh, like wasted only.

I wanted to dye but I can't, later N'level cannot pass through.

I shall endure until after N'level.

First thing I do is to buy hair dye and dye my hair!

We waited for an hour and I helped him wash away.

Well, if you look closer then you will see a bit of the colour.

A bit fail but he say nevermind wor.

Went to bed and was messaging.

Until halfway I don't know why.

I don't know why all those different kind of pains just came back at once.

Yea, I broke down.

I'm so tired of everything.

Tired of pretending I'm fine.

Tired of staying strong.

Tired of saying everything is fine when I know it's not.

Tired of smiling.

I cried and cried and cried.

After I cried finish, I still manage to tell myself, I'm fine.

Humans are lonely, feel lonely, no matter how many friends you have around you.

I'm always alone.

Get used to everything, everything will be fine.

That's what I always told myself.

breathe in and out, smile and close my eyes, sleep.

but I woke up at 6, I couldn't get back to sleep.

Until 6plus brother woke up and he ask me help him style is hair.

He don't know how style.

So I helped him style using wax.

He say I use too little liao, can't stay long.

I say next time then I help him style again.

Today stayed home whole day watching mr bean.

Funny sial him, joker.

Until 5 brother called and ask me go nex with him.

He wanna buy ear-stud or whatever.

Prepare and went down to find him.

buy already and we went to our house here hawker to eat dinner.

Ate and we came back home.

I've nothing to do so I came to post.

Okay, I shall off to watch tv now.

Although I still have things to type about.

Oh well, nights earthlings!

2011-09-01T20:28:00.002+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I don't know what to do at home so, here I am, to post.

Monday, that night met Constance at amk.

Damian cab down to find us cause we thought we're running late.

He cab down, we then know is not meet at amk, is at tkst.

In the end we cab down to Hougang to find Binbin.

Met Binbin and we waited for Ahpeng to come fetch us.

Fetch us all and we went down to wait for Yvonne.

We waited till 12 plus.

We then wait for Ahyong.

While waiting, suddenly someone message me, which I didn't expected that he will.

That's Yulun.

He out of the sudden say "I'm sorry".

I ask him why he keep er, uh, then say nothing.

Didn't wanna ask on so I said okay.

Awhile later he called me.

It's been months ever since he last called me, last I see his name appear in my phone, last I heard his voice.

We talked for around 10 - 15 mins and my mother called, so he kup-ed.

We went into malaysia around 1plus in the midnight.

We went in to eat and back to singapore.

Had so much laughter with them.

Back home at 4am.

I'm tired, but I can't sleep, but I still force myself to.

Morning woke up at around 9plus, that's early.

Went to bath and prepare, and took bus with mother to my mother's side grandmother house.

She's sick, so we went there to pay her a visit.

We stayed there till 12plus and took cab down to outram park.

Yeps, went there to meet up with my father and brothers to eat, as usual, since it's a public holiday.

Ate and went to hougang, Damian came down to fetch me to Binbin house.

We stayed there till 6plus and walk down to hougang plaza(?) to eat Suki.

Constance, YongHwee and Huizhuang then joined us.

As always, they never fail to make me laugh. (:

After eating we went to play kpool.

It's my first time trying.

It was so much fun!

We play till 10 and we all went home.

Only me took mrt, alone.

Home and I went to bath and sleep.

Wednesday, morning woke up, went to school.

Had pe for first period, free play, so we decided to play badminton.

Liru didn't came to school, sad.

After playing and we went back class for english then recess.

After recess bio, stayed awhile and mother came to fetch me home.

But we went to bedok as she ask me to help her do things.

Done and we went to eat.

Ate and took bus down to geylang to do other things.

Done and we took cab home.

Home and I jitao feel damn restless, damn tired, damn upset.

So I went to take a nap.

I had a bad dream.

I dreamt of him.

His leg suddenly gone missing.

I was so shocked, a guy that likes to play soccer so much and had lost his leg.

I got so upset and I hugged him so tightly, crying.

But he got so angry at me, pushed me away.

After then I woke up.

It was a dream, a dream so real.

Yea, in reality, I'm upset, he pushed me, and I wanted to hug him tightly ..

Woke up and went to watch show.

Brother came home and took his comp.

I went to bath and watch tv.

Until 10 I went to bed.

I turn here and there till 1am then I sleep.

Today morning woke up, prepare and went down to bugis to meet Liru and Emily.

We didn't went for Teacher's Day Celebration.

But still, tomorrow is teacher's day, Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers! (:

Went to mac to study.

We study till 1pm and we ate lunch.

Until 3 we went to walk around awhile.

3.30 went down to amk to find Constance.

We plan to play kpool at amk, but too many people.

Wanted to go hougang, but Damian say flooded when he is not even there.

I asked Jessie, she said bugis have.

I jitao wtf, I from bugis fly down now I need fly back bugis again.

So me and Constance went down.

Jessie brought me there.

And tada, we started to play.

It's fun. (:

Trying to laugh as much as I can these few days.

But none of my laughter came from my heart ..

Only he could, but he doesn't want to ..

We played till 7 and we went off.

Accompany her to Bishan and took circle line home.

Now I'm home, feeling so, lonely.

My arm hurts, my neck hurts, my leg hurts, my gastric hurts, my head hurts, my heart hurts the most among all.

I used to have someone that cared for me, that love only me, that takecares of me.

But now, I don't ..

He forsake me, abandon me, betrayed me ..

I've been trying to attitude him, pushing him away, treat him like a stranger.

But in my heart, I wanted to keep him close, I wanted to treat him like how I use to, I want his everything.

What can I do when he doesn't want to ..

You don't know how much I want him back ..

How much I want him to know that I love him ..

How much I want him to just love me ..

How much I miss him ..

How much I don't want him to betray me ..

How much I want him by my side, always ..

How much I need him ..

He don't know anything ..

He don't know how much I've done for him ..

I don't know how long can I hold ..

I'm tired, seriously tired, I just wanna put down everything ..

I just hope he will pull me back to him instead of letting me keep on falling ..

I know deep inside, he ain't coming back ..

So why am I crying for you, so hard? ..

I've so much to tell him, so much to tell him how much I really need him, love him ..

Even so, he won't be listening to me, just because he have 'her' ..

Nothing hurts more than being betrayed like this ..

Soon, soon I'll put down everything, soon ..

I shall end here, I can't take it anymore.

Tomorrow maybe going pool again, hope Constance is free.

Nights earthlings.

Tonight is gonna be a tough night for me again ..

2011-08-29T14:46:00.005+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I've nothing to do so I came to post.

Saturday had tk at Geylang Bahru.

There is a place where dead body are being I don't know what at there.

Coffins etc.

The toilet is right at the side of the door where when you turn to your right, you'll see a dead body lying there.

It scares me and Constance.

When we go toilet we keep look the other direction.

We wanted to see, but yet we are scare. Lol.

The last tk for 7 month.

After tk went back home.

Home and I did a box of cranes for him before going to sleep.

Morning woke up at 8plus, almost couldn't get up.

Prepare everything, wait for mother and we went down to tkst.

Had half day at our own temple.

Until 3plus finish and took cab home.

Constance came my house as she wanted to bath.

Home I bathed, dry my hair and went to straighten.

She say she nothing to do, so she helped me to straighten.

Until 5plus then she go bath.

6 went down to mrt to meet him to pass him the box of cranes.

He accompany me to shop and save and he went to his friend house.

Met Constance and mother at shop and save to buy Heniken.

Bought and we went back to tkst.

We had a 7 month dinner there.

All of us, tk members drank.

Me, Constance and Hweeling drank Heniken only.

4 bottles, I don't feel any seh-ness.

Quite a number of people face turns red only mine like still white. o.o

It's so fun!

So much jokes around, all keep say want jio me drink. Tsk.

Drank finish and we all went home.

Home, bath and uploaded photos.

It's 20plus photos, go my facebook see, lazy upload here.

After uploading, watch tv awhile and went to sleep.

Morning woke up, watch show awhile, went back to sleep again.

Just woke up not long.

What are words when you actually don't keep them?

I kept my words, but did you?

Now know how to attitude me already.

You'll never show me attitude, but today you did it.

You ask for my forgiveness, I gave you, over and over again.

Why? Because I believe in you.

Believe you will change, for me.

Believe you will keep your words just like what you said.

Believe you will put me in first priority.

Believe you are different from the rest.

Believe that I am important.

Believe that you cared.

Believe that you love me.

Believe in every single word you said to me.

No matter how much you hurt me, I still forgive and forgive, because I love you.

But guess you've been taking every forgiveness for granted.

"Sometimes you forgive people because you still want them in your life."

What is "spend my whole time with you" when you are actually out playing lan and pool with your friends now?

Yea, I said I don't want, because I want to spend time with you ALONE.

Don't you get it?

But you rather choose your friends rather than me, even attitude-ing me.

That already showed something.

Now it's like a million of arrows shooting right into my heart.

When I needed you the most, you're always not there for me when you actually told me you will.

So why, why am I crying for you ..

It's been months ever since I lasted cried for someone for hard ..

Everytime I cry, no one is there for me.

Always crying all alone, no one will be there to comfort me.

You know, I wished, I wish so much that you'll be the there.

I heard voices, I thought it was you, when I look around, it was just my heart that is shouting and crying out.

I don't know what makes you turn this way ..

It makes me so worried, so uncomfortable, so upset ..

I beg you, please, please be back the "you" ..

I am tired, I couldn't hold for long anymore ..

Don't let me fall ..

Waiting and waiting, if you would do anything, if you would show me and prove me, if you would message me ..

It just leads me to disappointment ..

There's so much I wanna type, so much I wanna tell him that I miss him, I miss every single thing we've done, and that I love him a lot ..

But no matter how hard I cried and shout out to him, he couldn't hear me ..

Someone please save me ......

I don't want this moment to ever end, where every thing's nothing without you.

This time, I'm going to drunk myself, DRINK UNTIL I DRUNK!

Bye earthlings.

2011-08-26T15:41:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I've nothing better to do at home so I came to post.

Hmms, last saturday.

Mother went to play mahjong, as usual.

Brother morning went work, afternoon study, night chalet.

Kendrick came my house to help me jailbreak my phone.

He thought need use computer in the end can just use phone jailbreak.

So he download cydia, etc.

My phone now looks nicer, thanks Kendrick. :D

Brother at evening suddenly came back and ask whether is it he help me jailbreak?

I said yea.

He then ask me to ask Kendrick to help him jailbreak his ipad.

So Kendrick did.

The rest I kinda forgot what happen.

Okay, shall skip that.

Sunday, stayed home in the morning and afternoon.

Didn't went out eat.

We had to baibai, for what I don't know.

Morning went to ntuc with parents to buy things.

Buy already went home.

Home and they start to baibai.

I very tired, I went to sleep awhile.

Woke up and sat beside my brother as he was trying to find themes for his ipad.

Parents went out and I went to bath.

Met Kendrick at Level Up.

Played for two hours and went home.

Home bath and sleep.

Monday, went school, ta-da, prelims results.

I failed 4 subjects, pass 2 only.

I failed my English, Math, Combine Humans and POA.

Means I only passed my Chinese and Combine science.

I can bang wall already, with my results like this, I can't even go ITE.

I feel so sad, damn sad.

I wanna study, but I can't study at home.

Rawr!

After school went home and went for tk at night.

Tuesday, school as usual.

After school home as usual.

Then had tk.

Wednesday, had PE.

Played a game, I forgot what it's called, slag?

Although I don't like the game but it's quite interesting.

Well, nothing also.

After school home and had tk afterwards.

At my house here only.

Something make me super angry.

They complain say we work keep talk.

That motherfcuker never think and push all blames to me?

Come on lah, I and we don't need your fcuking nasty comments.

Your daughter is there too, why you don't want say your daughter?

Heart pain sibo. Cb. -.-

After tk, brother came to find me, we went hawker after that.

Ate and went back home bath and sleep.

Thursday, it's late day.

I woke up, I saw mother at the kitchen.

She didn't went to work, so I asked her if I can don't go school.

She ask me why, I say I very tired.

Well, it's true that I'm tired, both physical and mental.

I didn't get a proper sleep for quite many nights.

Problems comes after problems.

So I accompany mother go polyclinic as she wants to take mc.

For me, I think I don't need it.

After that we went to eat, eaten and home.

Home awhile later mother went out, mahjong as usual like I said.

I stayed home watch "On the fringe", finish and I went to sleep.

I couldn't really sleep.

I woke up and continue use comp awhile.

Went to bath and prepare.

Went down to school gate as that stupid Kendrick ask me go there wait for him.

Met him and we walk to mrt.

Jonathan have very sharps eyes, he could see us even when we're quite far, hmms.

We then walk to bus stop to take bus to Kendrick's house.

His auntie and father look friendly. (:

But something happen and make me feel damn weird.

It's really like, someone taking something sharp and keep stab your heart continuously.

Kendrick and Jonathan played ps2 while I sat there watch them play.

Until 8plus we went down to sit.

I almost cry.

But things seems to be fine now, I guess, for that problem.

Kendrick then accompany me home already then he went back home.

Sweet right, yea I know.

Need me ask him then he will do! Tsk.

Home, brother ask me go hawker with him.

So I did.

He ate and we went back home, I bath and went to sleep.

Today morning I drag myself up.

I didn't wanna go school today too, feel a bit sick, some more it's raining.

But I promise Liru I'll go because she don't wanna be alone for POA.

I got up and prepare for school.

Reached and had chemistry.

Totally feel so restless.

Recess called mother to come down bring me home at 10.

After recess is POA, we change back to Mr Lim class.

Have Emily and Brenda they all accompany her already, so I can go home peacefully.

Mother came.

Liru accompany me down to general office.

Wrote down the particulars and went home.

Home, watched "On the fringe" and help my mother do laundry.

Hang clothes and I went to sleep.

I just woke up not long, a bit blurry now.

I feel so damn tired even though I slept for 2hour plus.

I can sleep on, but later at night I cannot sleep jiu jialat.

Hmms, no program for today.

I've so much in mind.

No one I can talk to.

I feel myself very selfish, bad.

I feel like, because of me, he can't do a lot things.

He has to reject things or someone when I don't like it or don't want it.

I feel, guilty at times.

I'm sorry boy, if you could understand me ..

Despite all these, know that my heart for you, is true, real true.

You may seems younger than me a lot.

But I guess age isn't the matter isn't it.

I wish, your heart was true too ..

Iloveyou boy.

2011-08-19T11:21:00.005+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back to post again.

That day went tk, super pissed.

I lazy type it out so I shall skip it.

Saturday have tk I think.

At night went to eat mac with brother.

He say he want see the new mac.

Suddenly Hweeling my cousin and her parents came.

We cousins sat down talk talk awhile, then me and brother went home.

Home, rest awhile and went to sleep.

Sunday woke up early, took bus down to temple to baibai my grandfather.

It's been quite a long time ever since I last bai my grandfather.

Bai already went to grandma house.

Baibai again, while waiting, watched tv.

Bai hao le then went to eat, rest awhile and went back home.

Home and bath and prepare.

Went to mrt to meet Jerrold to take back my chinese dictionary.

Took and took mrt to Aljunied to meet Kendrick and Hui Kai.

Walked to level up and played online games.

Until 8plus walked back home.

Something happen and make me very angry.

But I know I've to give in, so I tried to held back my anger.

Went to buy dinner for my brother.

Home, rest, bath and sleep.

Monday, went school.

It's chinese paper 1 and 2.

I is totally blur.

After paper went home.

Home bath prepare already met Kendrick and we went National Library.

Study halfway saw darling and baby.

Sat down together and study.

Study halfway we keep laugh laugh laugh, bth.

Kendrick ke lian only, sit there listen to us joke.

He ownself also laugh okay!

Until 8plus we all went off.

Walked home and went to buy dinner for brother again.

I jitao go sleep liao, tired.

Tuesday went school.

Changed venue to Friendship Hall for this whole week prelims.

We had Geography paper first.

First question, map, I jitao don't want do, I do coast.

Well, I anyhow boom in things only.

After then we had 2 hours of time for recess.

Went to eat and back to hall outside sit and study.

When go in for our Chemistry paper, I jitao don't know how do.

Like no link things lor! Geez.

Done and went back home.

Home and I forgot what happen.

Wednesday had biology paper.

It starts at 1130, morning A-maths.

Slept till 9plus woke up and chiong revise.

Went school at 11 and 1120 went in hall to get ready.

I write wrong answer, 1 mark fly. -.-

Finish and went back home.

Sorry, my memories are getting bad, I couldn't remember what I did after school.

Thurday, had POA paper 1.

Paper also starts at 1130.

Just go school for an hour, just for that paper, and go home.

To be frank, paper 1 was quite easy.

If you've study, it's really a easy paper.

But I don't know how to. ):

But then, heng my last question balance sheet I am able to balance it.

After paper went home.

Quarrel with him. ):

Met Kendrick awhile and came back home.

Home and watch Bleach awhile.

I watch until my eyes close. Lol.

Slept and suddenly brother came home.

He ask me buy dinner again! Rawr!

Went down to buy for him.

Home I slept next to mummy.

9pm woke her up, she ask me 7pm wake her I 9pm then wake her. x:

9pm, time for show!

They say MyBook instead of FaceBook. HAHA.

Cannot blame, they cannot use facebook this word in tv.

Know why? Cause it's copyrighted. (:

Watch finish and went to bed.

I want sleep one leh, mother at there iron clothes and keep talk to me.

Talk talk talk then start to nag at me. Haiyo.

Brother also, jailbreak only.

He keep ask me wait ah, don't sleep, wait me!

He go jailbreak then came to let me see.

Like cool only, he put the theme of 'Silent Hill'.

The lock and unlock sound so scary but cool!

He then try to go make the don't know what app which I want that app.

But he failed.

He say he'll figure out I think.

He also ask me ask Binbin they all, tsk.

I don't know want jailbreak anot leh.

I scare a lot problem, but then I want that app to disiao people. ):

See already and went to sleep.

Today almost couldn't wake up.

I didn't even study for my POA paper 2.

On the way to school, browse through all formats.

POA paper 2 all about partnership.

Then I study cash book, general journal all that for!?

I couldn't balance everything, time is short, 1 hour 30mins is not enough.

Done and took bus back home.

Home and went to slowly post 20plus people's wall. ._.

Post finish and went to watch bleach.

Watch halfway, came to post.

I just browsed through my past post.

Like wtf, damn xmm thinking.

A lot twit, very irritating! HAHA

See the past photos and post, memories.

Things change eventually.

Hmms, shall end it here? I've nothing much more to write.

Oh and, he changed.

He change like a stranger to me.

He isn't the one who dotes on me, pamper me, love me, care me so gently anymore.

He couldn't feel "him", even though I tried to reach out for "him".

He must be tired for holding onto me.

I feel, weird, uncomfortable ..

Damn ..

I shall end here, loves.

2011-08-12T15:51:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back to post again, I just suddenly feel like it.

Last sunday, went to have lunch with my parents at the usual place.

Ate and we went to bugis to walk around awhile and went to help Constance and Damian buy koi.

Of cause, helped my brother buy too.

Miracle sial, I never buy for my own. Haha.

Parents went home first as later they need go set up.

While me? Went down to somerset to meet Constance and Damian first.

Met and we went to buy ticket for 8, and went to shop shop around.

Which 8? Me, Binbin, Yvonne, Constance, Damian, Zhoujie, Yonghwee and his girlf.

We watch 6pm show, and they all arrive, went in on time.

That was the third time I watched.

I still laugh like hell, especially yvonne, keep make me laugh.

After the show they keep say bak gu tay. Tsk.

Yonghwee and his girlf went off first.

The other 6 of us went to HongKong Cafe eat our dinner.

Zhoujie keep shoot me only lor, angry much.

Ate and we walked to dhoby take mrt.

I walked in front, they all behind.

Stupid binbin suddenly walked beside me and cling onto my arm and lie on my shoulder.

Niahma, I kanna chua tio. ._. !

Reached dhoby, zhoujie, constance and yvonne went to take red line.

Binbin and Damian took the purple line.

Only I alone took the circle line. Sad right.

Home and went to bath and I forgot what I did.

Monday, had tk.

Hmms, nothing much happen also.

Midnight brother ordered mac and we watched show.

Watched and we went to sleep, like 5am in the morning? Lol.

Woke up at 10plus and use brother's ipad awhile, and went to bath.

Prepare and went out with parents.

Ohyea, it's national day!

Happy belated birthday Singapore! (L)

We went to the usual place to have bak gu tay.

Well, this time is the whole family.

I think a year only once we were able to sit down as a full family.

So, I appreciate it.

I took my brother's ipad and took a photo of my mother, it's above there.

I keep at there laugh sial. HAHA.

Ate finish and we all split up.

Elder brother went to find his friend, second brother went home.

Me and parents went to paya lebar thought of helping mother to buy dress as she's going dinner that night with my father.

But the This Fashion already closed down.

So parents went back home, I went to Kallang to find Kendrick.

Awhile later Hui Kai came, he say want go lan, but I don't feel like going. ._.

So he called don't know what Alvin, and he went to lan to find him.

Kendrick brought me to a so-called garden.

We sat there and talk.

We saw the areoplanes(?) flying.

Ndp had started.

I thought ndp ends at around 10 leh.

In the end my mother called and say it ends at 8.

And that time was like 7plus already.

I still need help my brothers buy dinner.

So I went home and went to buy dinner for them.

When I reached home it already ended long ago, and they were watch A Million Dollar Drop.

Watched with them and went to bath.

After that I went to sleep I think.

Wednesday no school due to the ndp, school holiday.

Went to prepare and met Kendrick and Mingxuan go lan.

We walked to Level Up, so damn hot.

Nowadays weathers are getting more and more hot.

Remember to drink more water guys. (:

Went in Level Up and I saw that bastard. -.-

Went to the back and saw Adam.

I ask Adam if he got study, he say yes.

I say, it's maths and ss leh.

He was like, HUH? NOT CHINESE LISTENING MEH?

I stare big big at him and smile and say, it's maths and ss lah!

He was like ohshit.

After awhile he went off, I think he go home study.

We stayed there for two hours, they play blackshot, I play audi.

Then we play dota, then audi, then they play back blackshot again. Lol.

We played until 5 and we went off.

I thought that bastard went off already cause I didn't saw him at his sit.

When I turn, niahma, I saw him sitting at the counter. ._.

The moment when I saw him, I jitao diao him. HAHA.

He was like keep looking at me. -.-

I open the door, he face front but I can see his eyes looking at my direction.

Went off without looking at him. Hoho.

We walked back to circuit road.

We sat the usual place.

We waited for Jonathan to come down.

He came and they went to play basketball with don't know who.

I don't know whose basketball is it.

After that I came back home awhile to do my things.

And went down to find them again.

They say mingxuan went home already.

They rest for awhile and they joined people for soccer.

I sat there for an hour plus doing nothing.

Until 8plus they stopped and sat down to rest.

We talk until 10pm and we went home.

And guess what, I didn't study for my pathetic prelim.

Home, bath and sleep.

Morning woke up, prepare and went to school.

First paper, maths paper 1.

I jitao blur, don't know how to do.

Well, some I know some I don't know.

2 hours, it's not enough for me.

Handed up and went for recess.

From 10 - 1130 recess, nice.

We sat at the canteen reading through ss textbook.

That bastard keep stare at me, feel so uneasy. ._.

Until 11plus we went up class, toilet and time for ss paper.

I don't know what am I writing.

I just anyhow boom in and keep repeat things.

For SEQ, don't know which idiot tell me there won't be any healthcare.

Cb, in the healthcare got come out.

I didn't study that, but I chose that cause healthcare leaves me a deep impression.

I jitao super angry. Zz.

End paper, 1pm and we went home.

Home, bath and sleep.

Met Kendrick awhile and he went off.

Went to hawker to help my brother buy dinner again. ._.

Bought, home and continue watch my Bleach.

People at home studying, I at home watch show. (Y) -.-

Watched until around 7plus brother wanted to do his project.

So I used his ipad.

Kendrick called me and we talk until 9 and I went to watch tv.

The Zhiyong very shuai meh, why so many people like him sial. ._.

Watched and off to bed.

Slept and today almost couldn't woke up.

I feel like skipping school, but because of prelim I can't. Geez.

Math paper 2, totally screwed.

A lot questions I don't know, very complicated.

I just hope I could pass it. -prays hard-

We went for recess after that, next paper is chinese listening compre.

1130 start, 12 end, by right is 12.15.

Paper ended and we went back home.

Home and I use comp awhile and went to sleep.

Nap awhile and wake up continue to watch my Bleach.

Brother suddenly came home and say he today half day.

I wanted to go back sleep, he came next to me and disturb me.

Keep use my father's pants make me. Tsk.

I browsing through twitter he keep tickle me.

Then he snatch the bolster from me!

Bad hor him, tsk.

Now he is sleeping, so I came to post awhile.

Later got tk, like sian only.

Shall go bath now, will post again.

Bye earthlings. :D

2011-08-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back to post again after a week.

Hmms, sunday have tk.

Nothing much, just meeting some friends that I haven't met for a few months.

Monday school.

Just a normal school day.

Liru didn't come, only me and Emily.

Feel weird.

After school go home, then met Kendrick and friends I think.

I forgotten what happen.

Tuesday another normal school day.

Liru didn't come again as she's sick.

Wednesday pe.

Play hockey again, quite fun.

I goal keeper, Benjamin keep stand in front of me, make me cannot hit the ball.

He say "You know I very dotes on you de~" -goosebumps-

The ball hit my bone, and the freaking ball is freaking hard(!).

Pain die me.

After school went back home.

Bath everything and went to mrt meet darling.

We went to amk to watch movie, Twisted.

Like funny only lah!

"Wa blingbling, buey tahan."

"出来啦，你不是很厉害咯，出来啦，出来抓我 nehneh, 抓我 nehneh lah."

"Eh, 出来 leh, limbei bo lard liao."

These three sentence had locked in mine and darling's mind.

We cannot stop laughing at these. HAHA.

After the show we went to eat pepper lunch.

It's been so long ever since I last ate that.

Saw Angie. ._. , like we both sian half.

Went to walk around awhile and we took mrt back home.

Met Kendrick and friends awhile.

After that went to meet brother and went hawker center as he wanted to eat.

He ate and we went home.

Home, sleep.

Thursday late day.

They say have mass pe, so we all wear pe.

In the end also don't have, cheat our feeling.

After school had english remedial.

Mr Chin another joker.

After remedial went home bath everything and met Kendrick and Jonathan.

You must be wondering why I keep meet him right.

Bo bian, he force me to do so.

They were doing their math homework.

Awhile later Jonathan went home, Kendrick continue do his homework.

He then called Jonathan to come down.

He tell me Jonathan was talking on phone with the girl he likes.

I say him people at there sweet talking you ask him come down. Tsk.

We sat there until 10 I think, then we went home.

Home, sleep.

Friday morning woke up, prepare and went to bus stop.

I reach there and I realised I didn't bring my ex card out. -.-

Went back home and take it, back to bus stop and took bus to school.

Reach and prepare for prelim.

Had our first paper, English.

The composition I totally don't know what am I writing.

I think I write out of topic. ._.

Recess time saw him, make me sibeh dulan. -.-

Next is paper 2, I totally don't have time to finish!!

Screwed everything.

After paper went home, meet Kendrick.

He then came my house awhile, until around 8 he went to meet Bryan.

I was at home watching my Naruto.

Awhile later brother came home, he use comp while I use his ipad. Hoho.

I use halfway I bth I just dozed off immediately.

I'm super tired, I woke up around 11 today morning.

Watch tv awhile and back to bed, use his ipad, then I almost dozed off.

Brother called me and I woke up, charge his ipad and I couldn't sleep.

Kendrick then ask me go lan.

So I waited my brother go out and I went to bath.

That moment, one bastard called me and ask me meet him.

He kup my phone, cb.

Don't ever fcuking call me and ask me meet you asshole. _l_

Bath everything and met Kendrick at my house downstairs.

We walked to 'Level Up'.

Met Jonathan there and we played for around 3 hours.

Another thing make me sibeh dulan is, that fcuking bastard also went there.

See him spoil my freaking mood.

He took the same phone as me somemore!! Geez.

Didn't cared him.

Saw Adam there, sitting and playing alone, so I went to talk to him awhile.

Until around 6 we went off.

That bastard also went off at the same timing as me. -.-

Asked Kendrick walk faster.

We walk back to the basketball court.

They borrowed soccer ball from someone and they played.

I sat there watching them.

Around 7plus Jonathan went off, sat there with Kendrick until 8plus and we went home.

He forced me to post, so I came to post.

I very lazy to think of things now.

My post is short isn't it, yea I know.

All I want to say is, I like the way he cares for me.

I like the way he make me laugh.

I like the way he guailan people and talk some nonsense.

I like the way he puts his jacket over my shoulder when I felt cold.

I like the way he tickles me.

I like the way he smile.

I like the way he laughs.

I like the way he looks at me.

I like the way he lies on my shoulder.

I like the way he lies on my lap.

I like the way he held my from my back.

I like the way he held my hands.

I like the way he's naive.

I like the way he kissed my forehead.

I like his smell, it makes me miss him more.

I like the way he speaks to me.

I like his voice, I miss his voice.

And of cause, I like the way he whisper and say, iloveyou.

I hate to love someone deep.

When I do so, the other party will start to dim the love for me.

Argh, shall post until here.

My heart and mind are super messy now.

Nights earthlings.

2011-07-30T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back once again.

I've nothing to do now, so I came to post.

Hmms, last post I say until going meet Kendrick to do homework.

So I went down to do homework.

Talk talk with his friends.

He keep insult Mingxuan fat sial, not only him, but others, including me. ):

And I wanna say, sorry Kendrick.

Cause I hit his poor leg until damn red and hot. LOL.

Mingxuan only keep at there laugh niah.

We then went to find the cat.

Sit down talk talk awhile, like bored only, nothing to do.

Until 10, Mingxuan went home.

Stayed with Kendrick until 10.30 and I went home.

In the middle of the night, I woke up.

Why? Cause I feel like vomiting.

I bth, got up from bed and went to vomit.

2 weeks ago, same day, almost same timing, I also vomited.

Vomited one time, and went back to bed trying to go back to sleep.

But I think I failed.

I got up again, sit at living room.

Awhile later I bth I went to vomit again.

Mother woke up and saw me vomiting.

But the second time I vomit like nothing come out, think cause of not eating for 2 days bah.

Drank water and went back to bed.

Morning actually don't wanna go school, but I still went.

Hmms, nothing much happen.

Recess time saw Mr Gage.

I say hi, he hi back.

He then ask how are you, I say I actually is fine, but see until you I'm not fine liao. x:

And I've to face him for two periods later on. Lol.

He ask if I've started practicing at home, I said no.

And he stare at me big big.

After recess geo, hmms, nothing also.

After that ss, we had test.

I don't know how to do, don't know what to write, anyhow boom in.

Whatever rubbish just throw in only.

After recess, was walking up the stairs back to class.

As you know, my class is at the 5th floor.

My friends were busy talking, and I was busy thinking of things.

I think until very deep sial.

And guess what happened?

I went to the 4th floor instead of 5th.

My friends were like, "OI WHERE YOU GOING!?" HAHA.

We all were like laughing lah.

Remind me there's one time, Emily wanted to go back class take things when we already walked to the staircase.

Then she went to H4-3 instead of H4-2.

Then she, "EH? Lock liao ah?"

Me and Liru was like, looking at her, then look at each other and we burst into laughter.

Sometimes, even now, I will disiao her whenever we walk pass H4-3.

I always say, "Eh eh eh Emily, lock liao ah?"

She will like "AISH!" HAHA.

Hmms, after school actually have remedial.

But I didn't went for it, I went home to rest instead.

Rest awhile, prepare and went down to meet Kendrick and his friends.

They kick the soccer ball until spoil. LOL.

Sat there awhile and went back home to change as I suddenly feel like running.

So I went to run, one round, 7 bus stops, alone.

My stamina drop a lot sial, need train more.

Run, went to do sit up and push up, until my leg cramp, till now.

Kendrick say Mingxuan wanted to find me but he don't know where I went.

In the end we went to run.

Mingxuan ran halfway and he cannot make it already.

Kendrick keep insult him, keep say he this kind cannot run one.

Bad sial him.

I sweat like hell.

Went back home change again and went down to talk with them.

Ke lian Kendrick, his leg kanna hit by my again. x:

Mingxuan say wrong thing he will kanna smack. Lol.

Mingxuan keep lie on his lap, jealous. ):

Later passerby thinks that they are gay! HAHA

Awhile later Mingxuan went home and stayed with Kendrick till 10plus.

Home bath and went to sleep.

Friday, nothing much also.

After school went to eat with friends.

Rest awhile, practice oral awhile, 1.45 we went up to wesley hall.

2pm, we went to hall and had our N'level chinese oral.

I am the last one!

Everyone's gone only left me and the two examiners.

And I can tell you that, I totally screwed my oral.

My passage, I keep pause pause pause, read wrong words, unknown words.

For conversation, I totally don't know what to say.

I can't think of anything, my brain couldn't work at all, jitao blank.

After oral, took my bag and went home.

Home and went to bath, met Kendrick.

He say Mingxuan coming down, in the end he also never. Tsk.

Until 10plus went home, father home.

He ask me where I go, I say I go play basketball. Lol.

Today morning woke up.

Bath, prepare.

Went down to bedok to help my dear mother pay things.

Paid, went down to bugis to meet Yufei and Jessie.

We went to bugis street to walk.

Yufei see until stitch things and she won't hesitate, she just buy it.

I was looking around for eeyore, but none. ):
We went to buy koi.

Bought and went to esplanade to eat Just Acia.

I suddenly miss my work.

Oh well, we ate and we went to take mrt.

They alighted at paya lebar and I went back home to pass my mother her things.

Something happen and make me very dulan.

Don't wish to mention it here.

Stayed at home awhile and went down to Somerset to meet my brother.

We went to cineleisure to collect the tickets first.

He then bring me go eat my favourite fish, salmon! (L)

Ate and we went to arcade to see people play as it's still early.

I saw a lot people take a USA wallet.

I was looking for it and I couldn't find it!

Man, I want that wallet!! ):

Time for movie, and we went in.

My brother say prepare your IC, that person confirm want see your IC.

Oh, need see IC cause it's a NC 16 show called 'Twisted'.

It's a funny show, middle part a bit boring.

After the show, I cannot stop saying this.

Cause it's a Li Guo Huang show, and got a part he say, "LAI LAH, ZUA WO NEH NEH LAH!"

Wtf, I cannot stop laughing at this sentence. HAHA.

My brother went to his friend's grandfather's funeral.

And I went home myself.

Met Kendrick, until 11.30 and I came back home.

Home and went to bath.

Bath and came to post.

Okay, shall continue next time, my brother wants his comp back.

Nights earthlings. (L)

Before that I want to say, I love you boy.

2011-07-27T15:58:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I've nothing to do now so I came to post.

Last post I mentioned that I'll be going school the next day, saturday.

So morning woke up, prepare and went to school.

I late 5 minutes, and saw Leah and Brenda sitting outside DNT room.

So I joined them, so we waited and waited.

Soon later Jonell came.

It's 8.30 and no one came.

In the end we called Mr Faizal, he say is not he come, is another person, what Amir is it.

Aiya, I don't know his name.

He then say he call the person, in the mean time, he asked us to go staircase there take the don't know what.

I know what's that but I don't know how to type it out.

Anyway, we went to check every side, all shut.

We waited until 9plus Chi Leng came.

We still wait, in the end we called Mr Faizal again.

And that person finally arrived.

He open all staircase and we carried 20 of the thing, I think.

We carried it to the softball room.

The rest, over 20 of it, up to the hall backstage.

First floor bring up to second floor leh, can faint.

Ohya, fyi, we are doing CIP.

We are given 4 hours to finish it, but we did it in 2 hours.

So after we are done, we went home.

Home and rest awhile, brother then went to study.

So I stayed home, he bought dinner back for me leh, miracle.

Love my brother. (L)

We ate and watched show, and I forgot what we did.

Sunday, mother went to work.

So only me, my brother and father go the usual place to eat.

Ate and we went to Orchard window shopping as my brother is meeting his friend at 5.

And that time was like 3plus.

Until 4plus going 5, me and father went to take mrt back.

But I didn't went home.

I went Aljunied to meet Kendrick, and friends.

Around 15 minutes later then they reach, tsk.

Jessie was with them at first, but she called me and say she's going to have steamboat so she went off first.

Met them and we went to a playground to sit down, slack slack awhile.

One of them smokes, damn, he makes me wanna smoke too.

But I've to endure, no smoking! -sad-

Then they started to play, I don't know what's that, what black and white.

My generation only ice and water, catching, pepsi-cola.

See them play reminds me of my childhood, kinda miss it.

Soon later three of them went off, while me, Kendrick and Hui Kai went to lan.

Thanks Kendrick for your treat. (:

We played 2 hours.

I played audi at first, and they played blackshot.

They very joker sial seriously.

We then decided to play l4d, but load very long so we didnt play.

We played dota, first round play half way dc. -.-

So we replayed.

They both say I keep ks them sial, especially the Hui Kai.

After we play and we went home.

Met mother and brother at hawker centre and we ate dinner together.

Home, bath and sleep.

Monday, went school, hmms, nothing much actually.

Ftus we sec 4s had sexuality talk.

Separated of cause, boys with boys, girls with girls.

Talk until 2.30 and went home.

Home and I forgot what I did.

Oh, I was using my brother's comp to watch show.

And I dozed off, wake up and it's already 7.

Mother called and she's coming back home.

I went to bath, I bath out my mother came home.

Actually want her go buy dinner de. Tsk.

In the end mother gave me money and I went down to buy for us and my brother who was coming home soon.

I 7.45 go down, I call him to ask what he want, I 8.05 go back he still haven't reach home.

He still tell me 7.45 reach home.

Bought, ate and mother went to grandma house.

Me and brother went into our room and he start to do his project.

While I used his ipad.

He say me, "Wa, you very enjoy life hor. I not at home you use my comp, I come back use comp, no comp use my ipad."

Of cause, in air con room, lying on bed, and uses his ipad. HAHA

Until around 10plus I went to sleep.

Tuesday, chapel, Annie sings leh!

But we couldn't hear a single voice from her, all Faith's voice.

Don't like her. ._.

After one song Annie pass the mic to Yuhung(?).

Hmms, nothing happen also.

After school went to bugis with Emily and Liru.

This time we went there without husband.

It's been a week plus ever since she last came to school.

Last week she whole week didn't came to school, until today she also haven't come.

She still tells me that she will come this week. -.-

Even though she's aiming for ITE, though she's working, though she's heartbroken, she still needs to come school isn't it.

She tells Liru tomorrow she will go, but end up morning Liru text her, she say she cannot wake up.

Excuse, if you wanted to go school of cause you will wake up.

If you don't want, no matter how hard you drags yourself up also no use.

Sigh, just hope she's alright and come to school asap.

Back to story, we went to ANBC shop as they wanted to buy pen re-filler.

Bought and we went to buy koi.

I think that person calculate wrongly, but we let it off.

They went to take green line and I went to bras basah and take mrt home.

Home, awhile later mother came home.

She then went down to hawker centre to buy lunch plus dinner for me.

We ate, and she went to bath.

Bath already, dried her hair and she asked me to help her straighten her hair.

So I did.

Done with her and I went to bath.

Prepare and went downstairs to meet Kendrick and friends.

They were playing soccer, well, not really playing soccer, more like anyhow kicking the ball? LOL.

They play, I was sitting there doing my pathetic POA homework.

Done and watched them anyhow play.

And I saw two guys fighting, quarreling.

Got one guy shout until he cries, I think.

And I heard what he say 1 minute sparring.

I don't really care, almost everyone where going there and see them fight.

Still say what free show, popcorn, screen. LOL.

Tsk, kids nowadays, cannot make it.

Even a primary school kid, around primary 2 or 3 already know how to scold vulgar.

I keep say is Kendrick teach them one.

And he was like keep staring at me and deny say it wasn't him.

Pity him, always kanna bully by me, HAHA.

His friends went home, and we sat down and have a talk.

He told me something that makes me damn freaking angry, sad, guilty.

A lot of emotions mixed together.

That moment, I feel like punching someone/something.

If it's you, I think you will feel the same way too.

Talking behind people's back, get a life please.

Ain't perfect, then stfu.

No life people, karma will get you. (:

I felt guilty.

Sorry Kendrick, for what I've done to you.

And thanks for everything, I appreciate it, really. (:

10plus went home.

Home, bath and sleep.

Today morning went school.

It's pe, and we played hockey.

Before playing he expect us to run, so we run.

After I ran, I feel like the world is spinning.

My leg almost couldn't stand, almost fainted.

Didn't care and we started to play.

Emily then went to vomit.

Followed by Liru and by me.

We are so worn out and we all vomited.

I bth sial.

Recess didn't ate.

Bio Mrs Tang was so fierce, well, her temper don't seem to be good these few days.

During Mr Chin lesson, my gastric started to pain.

When POA lesson Mr Sim asked if I wanted to go down I said no.

I hold until 2.45 end school, and I came back home.

Well, it still hurts a little right now. /:

Home and rest awhile, watched Bleach.

Since Naruto I watch finish, now I watch Bleach.

This coming friday is chinese oral, N'level.

Next week is prelim, tomorrow got ss test, I still have homework undone.

Stress stress stress!

And last post I also mentioned that I don't know whether I should activate my facebook anot.

In the I activate it.

Actually is thinking to activate for a day and I deactivate it.

But in the end I put relationship with Yufei, then can't deactivate, if not she can't put.

Oh well.

Shall go bath now and prepare.

Maybe meeting Kendrick they all do homework.

Ciao earthlings. (:

2011-07-22T21:24:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back to post again.

Well, as you can see, I've changed my blogskin.

This blogskin I think I used before.

I change cause previous one like sot sot liao.

I thought that no one is reading my blog, so whatever blogskin I change also the same.

In fact, no one is reading it anyway.

Although I wish he reads my blog ..

Alrights, back to story.

Sunday went to eat with parents as usual.

Father went home after that.

Me and mother went paya lebar's popular to buy some stuffs.

Bought and took mrt back home.

Home, use computer awhile, and helped mother to straighten her hair.

Like nice only!

She's happy, I'm happy too. (:

Parents went out to attend a dinner, while I stayed at home.

I forgot what time brother came back from malacca.

Monday go school, blahblahblah.

At school, during GEM time, Yanchuan, Miss Hayati and others surprised us with Michael Jackson dance. HAHA.

It was fun though, we all laughed like hell.

Especially when Yanchuan talks, HAHAHA.

Okay hold on ..

Damn, my memory is getting bad, I couldn't remember what I did. ._.

I think I stay home, is it? Hmms.

Have been watching Naruto Shippuden.

It's nice and interesting okay!

But sad is I've watched finish, waiting for the next episode to come out. :D

Tuesday school, nothing much also.

Wednesday pe.

As I mentioned, this week is last week of volleyball.

We all formed groups and we played.

And one thing I'm so angry and sad is, when I was so into volleyball, alarm rang.

Guess what? It's fire drill.

Me and Liru was like wtf, we play until so shuang sial.

Bo bian lor, took our bags and we still slowly walk to the field.

Me and Liru sat in front.

Well, to be exact, is in the middle.

Cause the front has sunlight, all don't want sit, sit behind the sunlight.

But the sun keep rise, so we moved back a bit.

Awhile later the sun shines on us again.

Me, Liru, Brenda and Cordelia jitao give up, sit under the sun sua.

While the whole level of students got up and went to the back where there's no sun shining.

You can see a big difference, only 4 of us sitting in front.

Teachers came to ask why are we sitting there, whether we wanted to move.

We all said, no. LOL.

Although the sun is so hot, but at least there's wind. (:

We sat there for like a period plus, which is like over 35 mins.

We sat there so long just to wait for a missing student.

Damn that student, make the whole school wait for him/her.

When we're dismissed, we went back to class to put our bags.

We then took our wallet and went for recess, HAHA.

A english lesson gone just like that.

Hmms, after that nothing much happen.

Brother is having sore eye.

He didn't went work on wednesday.

But he went to study at night.

Thursday late day.

And it's racial harmony day is it?

Blahblahblah, also nothing much.

Brother didn't went to work that day too.

He had mc for 4days.

Afternoon went back home, and we went to Aljunied market eat.

Ate and we went home watch show.

'Death Bell'.

It's a korean movie, it's not really horror movie, more like murder kind.

Watched finish and he went to play ps3, I sat there and watch him play.

Until 7 I went to bath.

Bathed and continue watch him play until 8plus, we went to hawker centre to eat.

I cannot always go out with him, I'll grow fatter damn fast. ._.

We ate vegetarian. HAHA.

But it's nice, (: .

Ate, home and we watched 'Death Bell 2'.

Story line like the same, nothing much interesting.

Watched finish and went to sleep.

Today, went school.

Chemistry test, I screw everything.

I brought file home, and I didn't study. (Y)

Hopefully I get a pass(?).

Recess chiong POA homework.

Well, it's just copying theory out three times.

Do finish and we went to see H4-1 people play volleyball.

Me, Emily and Leah went to extra join in.

Me and Leah took one ball and we started to play ourselves. LOL.

Play 1-2 mins only and we went up to class.

While waiting for the bell to ring and teacher to come, we stand at the corridor and watched them play.

They clap we at 5th floor also clap. HAHA.

Damn funny, just love being with them.

They always makes me laugh, putting my worries, my hurts, him, everything aside for a moment.

Bell rang and teacher came, and we went back to class to get ready for lesson.

It's POA.

We're learning Amalgamation.

Hmms, it's a bit easy but when it comes to exam, my mind will be blank.

Mr Sim treats me and Liru good, he always will come to me and see if I need help.

And I've homework on that too.

Shall try to do it tomorrow(?).

Maths, english.

12.25 ended school, went to canteen to eat with Liru.

We sat there till 1.25 and we went to library to find Mr Chin for remedial as it starts at 1.30.

He asked us to look for a book that we're suitable for it and we can finish reading in two weeks.

I like books like murderer, investigation.

So me and Liru found a book, CSI.

We both borrowed the same, CSI, but different story line.

Sat in library read a few pages, borrowed and went to class.

He gave us comprehension to do.

I chiong do the summary.

He say 2plus end, in the end 3plus then end. ._.

Ended, Liru went to Guides, while I went to Bugis to find my brother.

We went to collect his things and went to have lunch.

Ate and we took mrt back home.

Home we both nap awhile and he got up to go school.

He went out and I came to use his computer awhile.

I went to bath, and I suddenly thought of blogging.

I see my previous blogskin like very irritating, so I decided to change.

Tomorrow still need go back school for CIP.

Mr Faizal nah, tsk.

Brother just called and asked me to go eat dinner with him.

And the time now is like 10plus already. ._.

Hmms, I don't know whether should I activate back my account. /:

I feel like activating it, but another side I don't want to.

I've so much questions in my mind, heart.

So much worries.

So much pains.

So much sadness.

So much words.

But I don't know who can I turn to.

Sigh, even now I don't know what I wanted to type.

Oh well, shall continue next time. (:

Loves.

2011-07-16T19:45:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Here I am to post again, it's been a week isn't it.

Well, I'm glad that there's someone who still reads my blog.

but I bet it'll be for a time being, (: .

Anyway, shall continue, last saturday I said my brother wants to go ntuc.

So we went, we bought fries and mushroom soup.

Home and he continue to play his ps3 while I cook, bad hor him.

We watched show, "Heart Strings" , while eating.

Hey, it's a nice show.

There are two members of CN blue, of cause, like I mention, Minhyuk is inside.

He is so damn cute~ :3

Love the way he plays drum, shuai bodohzxc.

Hmms, sunday.

Went to eat with parents as usual.

Ate and went to cut hair.

Above photos is after I've cut my hair.

No difference hur, still the old ugly me, haha. (:

After that went home.

brother downloaded 'Left 4 Dead 2'.

He ask me to play, so I played one round.

There's a witch sitting in the middle of the stage.

I need to go behind the stage.

I tried to walk to the side as much as possible.

but the witch keep stare at me, so I stared back.

And I don't know which idiot went to startled the witch and it went wild.

And I ran away.

My brother then tell me, "The witch stare you you cannot stare back one."

I replied, "She stare at me first leh, so I stare back lor!"

He stare at me and we both laughed.

He uninstall it cause I don't wanna play.

My parents then quarrel.

My father then shout at me, ask me to go my grandma house, which I don't want to.

In the end my brother say he accompany me go.

So we went to eat first, and went to my grandma house.

We reached and we watched Harry Potter at channel 5.

Watched finish, after awhile we went home ourselves first.

We walked home instead of bus.

He act cute, he say he lazy take bus. LOL.

Well, it's monday.

Went to school as usual.

After school went home and evening me and brother went to run, sit up, push up.

It's been quite long ever since I last did sit up.

That was like, when I've my Nafa? I guess.

Do until my tummy cramp.

Tuesday, nothing much happen in school.

After school went home is it? I think.

Night went to dhoby find my brother.

We went to watch 'Transformer'.

Well, I'm not keen in that show, he wanted to watched, so I accompany him.

Also not I pay anyway, x: .

I've a brother that treats me damn good.

I'm happy to have a brother like him, hehe. (L)

It's a 2hours plus show, hmms, can say it's not bad lah, for me.

Wednesday, it's pe day.

This week and next week is volleyball.

Friday is sports day, our class doesn't have a team to participate.

Pe teacher then start to pick people, 4 girls, 4 boys.

And he actually picked me. ._.

I already planned that I don't wanna attend it.

In the end he ask if we willing to go anot, I shook my head, and he ask me go back play volleyball.

He then say H4-2 (my class) and H4-3 to combine.

He asked us to form groups and play volleyball, 4 boys, 2 girls.

Alvin asked me to join his group, Mammit also asked me to join.

both of them also asked Liru to join.

We both like don't know who to follow.

Shi An then asked me join his group.

4 groups, only one group have 4 boys 2 girls.

Other three, include mine, only have 1 girl, which means 5 boys and I'm the only girl. ._.

Shi An, Alvin, Praveen, Shawn, Kianpoh they like joker only, especially Shi An. LOL.

bell rings and we went back to class.

Hmms, then same as usual, nothing much.

That night, around midnight 1plus, I woke up feeling damn unwell.

I lied on my bed until 2plus 3, I get off my bed and went to kitchen.

I saw mother sitting there reading newspaper.

I sat beside her, and she asked me why I wake up.

I told her my tummy feels weird.

She gave me eat bao ji wan, and apply medical oil on my tummy.

Awhile later I went to the toilet and I vomited.

After that my mother accompanied me to my bed and she accompany me till I sleep.

It's late day, so I'm supposed to wake at 7pm.

Mother woke me up around 6plus going 7, and ask if I'm okay.

She say she woke up late, not going work, and she's going to polyclinic.

She asked me weather I want go school anot.

I told let me think first.

Well, one side I feel like going, another side I don't feel like.

So I asked Emily and Liru, and they ask me to see doctor.

I woke up, wash up and went to polyclinic with my mother.

And I had mc for 2 days, which my mother ask the doctor for it.

After that we went to bedok cause she wants me to help her do things.

We then went to ntuc, buy ingredients to cook dinner.

And she bought 2 more pairs of contact lens for me.

Love my mother much! (L)

We took bus home and she cooks the soup and asked me to look over the fire.

And she went out.

I forgot what happen then.

At night around 6 I start to cook.

I cook finish, brother came home.

And we started to eat.

Above is a sample of it, it doesn't look nice but it taste nice. (:

Friday is sports day.

And I didn't went for it.

Stayed home whole day, at night brother came home and we went Aljunied to eat.

Ate and we went home.

Continue to watch my naruto.

Until don't know what time I went to sleep.

brother morning went to Malacca.

Whole day only I stayed home.

Around 6plus mother came home and bought dinner for me.

She still buys popiah, 6 of it. ._.!

And she expects me to eat it all!

No way man, she's kidding anyway~

She's nagging me now, shall go and eat first.

And I'm happy, rather sad because of something.

Hehe, that's all.

Loves.

2011-07-09T17:05:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Hmms, it's been almost a week ever since I last posted isn't it.

Shall continue with it.

Sunday went to have lunch with parents as usual.

After that we went to bugis.

Went to walk about, wanted to buy bag but mother say when she have money first.

So I went to search for angry bird.

And ta-da~ , I found and got one small angry bird pouch.

bought and went to buy food for my brother.

Wanted to buy koi, but in the end the queue was so long.

Father at there tsk already, so didn't manage to buy it.

Walked to bras basah mrt and took mrt home.

Home-ed and watch ghost must be crazy again.

Cause my mother wanted to watch it.

Watched finish and I use my brother's ipad.

Parents went grandma house awhile later.

Went to cook dopoki.

The sauce is nice, but the dopoki like a bit weird weird.

My brother say throw away, so I threw.

He ordered mac instead.

Ate and went to bed.

Couldn't sleep, but still forced myself to.

Monday is 'Youth Day', school holiday.

Home and use my brother's computer awhile.

bathed and prepare, met Jerrold at paya lebar mrt.

We went to downtown.

Cause I needed to collect my salary.

239, o.o .

Took 220 to pay my phone bill, I still have 240 haven't pay. ):

After collecting we went to tm walk around, then fly to bugis just to get koi. LOL.

Thanks Jerrold for your koi. (:

We then fly down back to tm as I'm meeting my brother there.

He siao one, he accompanied me all the way back there and he went home after that.

I stood at starhub shop outside and watch Tom&Jerry. HAHA.

brother reached and went to gv as he's buying movie ticket for wednesday's.

He and other 5 of his working friends are watching 'Transformers' on wednesday.

After then we went to a shop as one of his working friend is buying a necklance&earrings.

She choose and asked me for opinion.

It wasn't match though, and she asked me choose.

So I chose another earring, and she said it's nice and she bought it.

She then went to find her husband while me and brother went to eat, popeye.

Ate and we went to see if there's any ps3 game, after that we went home.

And I forgot what happened.

Tuesday went school, as usual, nothing much happen.

After school, me, husband, Emily and Liru, of cause, four of us again, we went marina.

Why? To have our lunch at 'Just Acia'! :D

It's my treat though, since it's my first salary.

Ate and we went home as husband is working later on.

Home, and I forgot what I did.

Memory is getting bad nowadays.

Those I need to remember, I can't remember them.

Those I don't need and don't want to remember, it's always in my head. Damn.

Wednesday pe volleyball, like sian only.

Nothing much happen in school.

Just that I kept see him almost everytime in school.

I'm dying to see him, but at the same time, I don't wish to see him too.

The more I get to see, the more I'll miss him, just like how I am right now.

It hurts to miss him, yet knowing he's not missing me. Geez.

After school me, Liru and Emily went to library to find Mr Chin.

Cause he wanted to do oral practice with us, he say especially me. Tsk.

He keep shoot me sial, then say Liru and Emily good. Rawr.

When it comes to conversation, Liru say until she cry.

I say "See, you make her cry already lah, who ask you choose this topic."

Guess what he say? -looks at me- , "she have to learn."

Well, what he say is true but see Liru cry I also want to cry. /:

After oral and we went home.

Home and watched naruto.

I've been watching it these days, last time watch halfway.

Thursday late day.

First lesson chinese, and teacher didn't come.

We are suppose to do compo, but me and Michelle end up talking.

I forgot what we were talking, and slowly we linked to primary school.

Well, she's a friend that we've been in the same class for 8years.

Since primary 1 to sec 2, from then we went to a different class.

She's much clever than me. (:

And we start to say about 4 colours, each represent a person.

I'll not say about it, want to know? Ask me personally. (:

We talked for 2 periods and I went back to my class.

Until 1pm Emily went off for lunch as 2pm she have her oral.

Mine was on the next day, which is Friday.

After school we had bio remedial.

I like being in the bio group, I don't know why but yea.

After remedial went to sing spot near mac to help my brother collect his things.

And, pay my phone bill.

Thanks Liru for accompanying me. (:

We then walked all the way to paya lebar mrt.

She took green line, I took yellow line.

Home and I continue to watch naruto.

Friday went school, blahblahblah.

After school had lunch in school, until 2pm, me, Liru and husband went for our oral.

It's N'level oral fyi.

Haziq, Ryan, Mammit, Weileong, they all joker only.

Weileong ask Haziq to bribe them with $2, each $1 as there's two examiners. LOL.

Liru was the first one, bet she's nervous.

I'm the 8th, the passage was rather easy though.

As for picture and conversation, I don't know what to speak. /:

I tried to calm myself.

As Mr Chin told me, "There's nothing to be nervous or afraid."

Just hope I can pass, that's what I'm aiming.

Husband is the 9th, waited for her and we went to ntuc.

She deposit money, and I went to ntuc to get mushroom soup.

Make dinner for brother and myself.

We watched show while eating.

The show is a korean drama, Cn blue's Yonghwa & my favourite Minhyuk.

Gosh, he's cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! (L)

After eating, clean up and went to bath, continue watch naruto.

Went to sleep at around 10plus, I'm super tired.

I kept wake up in the middle of the night, I don't know why.

I will jump up and check my phone.

but everytime I did this, I feel disappointed.

Cause I used to do this to check for his message, and there's always his name appear.

but for now, his name will never appear again ...

Sometimes I just get so riled of waiting for his text and wanted to text him.

but I know, he wouldn't care, neither will he reply my text.

And that time, I held back everything.

As for today, I stayed home the whole day.

Used my brother's computer again to watch naruto.

Shall watch it later on.

I suddenly feel like posting, so I came to post.

but I bet no one is reading all these, only myself hur. Lol ..

I'll be always waiting, waiting for that day, that day I got to receive his text again ..

Anyway, brother say he wanted to go ntuc, shall post again!

And, I deactivate my facebook, and I'm using twitter now.

If you have, follow me, @'Veramissyou'.

Loves.

2011-07-02T20:51:00.009+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Okay, I'm kinda bored at home so I decided to post.

Firstly, I got my angry bird iphone cover already! (L)
Brother bought blue and black instead of red and blue.
He ask me change with him.
Means I take black, he take blue.
Actually I don't want, but I think that he's phone already black.
If he take black cover, like very plain.
So I change with him, he took the blue one while I took the black one.
It's nice, picture will be posted next time. (:

Wednesday, pe.
We played volley ball, hand all red. x.x

Then, got bio, blahblahblah, 2.45 then ended school.

Went home, husband came my house I think.

She wanted to use my computer.

And, for those who still reads my blog, which I don't think anyone will be reading.

I've deactivated my facebook.

So don't be surprise if you couldn't get to my profile, and I not I remove you.

I don't remove people without any reason, like someone. (:

Leena husband wanted to deactivate her account too, but facebook don't know why keep never deactivate.

We tried a lot of times, but still failed.

So she gave up.

Awhile later she went home, cause she's working later on.

So, I went to use my brother's comp to watch show.

Until at night brother came home, blahblahblah, I forgot.

Thursday late day.

I went out of house, it's drizzling.

I reached aljunied, raining cats and dogs. ._.

My shoe was like, drenched.

Thursdays is combine humans day.

After recess, two periods geo, two periods ss.

Can go bang wall, don't like ss!

After school went home, bath etc.

Went to bugis to meet brother.

He went to hello singtel to ask some things.

And he say go somerset.

So we took mrt down to somerset.

He wanted to buy ipad.

He bluff me say he wanted to buy galaxy tab. Tsk.

From somerset, we went to orchard, ion, epicentre.

He wanted to buy ipad white, 32gb.

But all sold out, only left 16gb.

He asked me where still have epicentre, I told him suntec.

So we took mrt to somerset, he went up to epicentre to ask while I wait him at mrt.

Awhile later he came down and we went to suntec.

Went epicentre and still, no more 32gb.

Only left 16gb, and it's the last one.

So he bought it, he don't want wait and find already.

He bought, and screen protector.

One of my ex works there last time, heng he quit already. (:

We then walked back to bugis to apply for multi don't know what, I forgot.

Applied and we went to foodcourt eat.

Actually wanted to eat sakae sushi, but after we fly to so many places, it's aready 9pm.

He say saturday then treat me eat as I accompany him buy ipad.

My brother it's good right, of cause.

Love him many! (L)

He still bought a small angry bird for me, and I hang it on my phone. Woots (L)!

Remember I last post said there's a American guy live in my house?

Yea, he gave me one angry bird.

He said he made it himself, with his own hands.

Hmms, shall hang it on my angry bird pouch when it comes. (:

Angry bird lover now :B .

After that we went back home.

Home and used his ipad for awhile, and went to sleep.

Friday, first period chemistry.

Say until chemistry, I haven't done my homework.

Even my other homeworks. x.x

Then recess, 8.55 recess leh!

It's like super damn early sial, first time.

Then poa.

Stupid Mr Sim, ask me and Liru change to his class.

I don't want lah sial!

Make me and Liru's mood bad. ._.

Leena also joined, only Emily and Brenda still at Mr Lim's class.

Sian half only. /:

And he just throw 6 homeworks to the three of us while others only 1 or 2.

Wtf is this, bloody hell.

English learn oral, 8July is my N'level oral.

Bloody hell, it's like next friday, nervous!

After school Liru went home.

Me and Emily accompanied Leena to tpy.

She wanted to get her lens and bank money.

So we took bus down.

This whole week almost everyday also saw him.

Everyday waiting and waiting, waiting for a day when he could message or even call me.

At least I got to see him in school, for that few seconds.. /:

Reached tpy and we went to get her lens, and went to eat mac.

They seriously never fail to make me laugh. LOL.

After we ate and we went to get koi, (L).

Emily took 26 home, me and husband took 155.

Home and went to use my brother's comp awhile.

Recently I keep watch "Ghost must be crazy."

Front part is always the most funniest part.

"If you cook in the jungle, the enermy air craft fly above, sees the fire, they will bombard the whole place. You die, I die, everbody die."

Watch halfway and I went to read my previous post.

I don't know, my tears just flows down.

No one at home, so I cried out loud, none hears me, especially him. /:

Wanted to text him, but I know he wouldn't care nor reply, so I held back.

I tried to sleep, but I failed.

So I woke up, bath, etc.

Whole day alone at home, until 10plus went to bed.

Today morning woke up and saw brother playing ps3.

Borrowed his ipad to use.

Well, to me it's nothing special about it.

Just a bigger version of iphone.

But it's cool if you take it out to use it.

He then asked me what time I want go eat sakae sushi.

Cause he promised me that he will bring me go eat.

So I went to bath, prepare everything already and we went to esplanade.

We went to sushi express to try out.

That shop sells sushi only, those love to eat sushi, that place will suit you. (:

Well, to me, I don't really like.

So we went to shop around and we went to sakae sushi to eat, again. LOL.

I'm gonna grow fatter. (Y)

Ate finish and we went to a korea shop.

Why? Cause I wanted to buy dopoki~

Fyi, dopoki is called rice cake.

When it's new year, Korean people will eat rice cake.

I've seen Liru cooked before, so I am trying myself, monday then I cook. ^^

Bought and we went home.

Home and brother play ps3, and I used his ipad to take photo. HAHA.

Well, I am using my brother's comp to post now, I'll upload photos when I use my own comp.

Which, I don't feel like using, I don't know why.

He went out just now.

Only left me alone at home! But my elder brother is back awhile later. o.o

He's playing ps3 now.

And for those who likes to listen to korea songs like me, here are some songs.

T-ara - Roly Poly.

2pm - Hands up.

F(x) - Hot summer. / Pinocchio.

Secret - Starlight moonlight.

It's all in my music list anyway. LOL.

Yea, like I said, I'm still waiting.

Waiting for his text/call.

If so, I'll be damn happy, but in fact, I know he won't ..

I know I must let go and move on, but I don't want to ..

I wish you were here ..

Shall post until here bah, will post again.
Loves.

Okay, blogger don't allow me to let all words stick together again. -.-

2011-06-28T21:44:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I just wanna post a song so I came.

Well, today was normal.

After school went bugis with husband, emily and Liru.

Yea, four of us again.

They never fail to make me laugh, joke around.

We went to zinc, Emily wanted to buy bag.

And she bought, same as Liru's but different colour.

I wanted to buy handbag, 50 dollar. ):

No money already.

brother say he wanted the ipad pouch, which is angry bird!

He maybe buying ipad, hmms.

He asked me to buy the pouch for him.

Since I owe him a steamboat, I'll make it for the pouch.

I bought one for myself too.

And I decided to buy angry bird iphone cover.

I asked my brother buy for me.

Fair fair, I buy two pouch, he buy two iphone cover.

both also angry bird (L).

Anyway, back to story.

After buying the bag we went to eat pasta mania.

And of cause, we went to buy koi!

Our purpose was to buy koi, hehe.

bought and we went to walk around.

We four bought the same earring, Lol.

We then went home after that.

Leena husband came my house cause she wanted to use comp awhile.

Watching show with mother while she uses my comp.

She went home around5plus 6.

So I went to bath etc.

Mother then went to grandma house while I stayed home do homework.

Done and continue play my iphone, Tiny Tower.

My brother asked me to play, kinda retarded game.

Played and suddenly wanted to post a song.

It's a nice song, it seems to speaks something, from me.

Oh well, I'll post the lyrics.

The song I think my music have.

It's called "Who says" by Selena Gomez.

And, I miss him, a lot. /: ..

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.

You made me insecure

Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

[Selena Gomez - Verse 2]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

[Bridge]
Who says
Who says you’re not start potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

Okay, that's all. Loves.

2011-06-27T17:05:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Well, after my last post, everything seems so dark to me.

Thursday, I went down to find him.

And what I get was, he wanted to break.

I tried to get everything back, but he doesn't want it.

So I gave up.

I went home after that.

And I forgotten what I did.

Friday, stayed home the whole day, parents went malaysia.

So I borrowed my brother's laptop to watch show.

Whole day I'm watching show, how pathetic.

Until 12plus I think, brother came back home.

He went to play ps3, while I watched him play.

Around 5plus we ordered mac and we ate before going to bed.

We slept at 7, woke around 2plus 3plus.

He continue play his game, he then say he wants to sentosa.

So I went to bath, prepare everything and we went down to sentosa.

We from vivo, walk to universal studio outside, and walk to the beach.

It's my first time visiting universal studio, outside only.

But hey, it's awesome.

Went to the beach, we walked around.

Well, I just wanna go there and calm myself.

We then took the free tram back to station and walk back to vivo from there.

Reached and we went to eat.

Eat finish and we went to walk about in vivo and we took train home.

Home and continue watch my brother play ps3.

Awhile later he say he don't wanna play already, he say go watch show.

So we went into the room and he actually wanna watch one piece, but I don't like.

He lend me watch, while he play psp.

I rewatch Toy Story 2, kinda forgot the story.

Watch finish he say want order mac, again.

So he did.

Ordered, ate, rest awhile and we went to bed, at 3plus.

But I didn't sleep, I was watching Shinee hello baby.

Watch until 4plus going 5 I bth, I closed and I slept.

Slept till 1plus then wake up.

Awhile later brother came back.

I used his laptop to watch show, he then went to bath and play ps3, again.

I watched 'Mary to Max' is it?

I forgot the title, but I know it's Mary and Max.

Hmms, it's quite nice(?).

It's about these two person doesn't have any friends, etc.

Watch halfway I went to bath and prepare.

Awhile later, my brother bought his friend to my house.

It's a American, from USA I think.

I don't know why he came to Singapore, I only know he's gonna stay at my house, for a week.

He's quite big size, quite handsome also, but not my type.

I only want him .. /:

My brother that time sees his picture and say he look like osama! LOL.

But real life he doesn't look like.

My brother asked me to introduce myself.

His name is Daniel, I think, I didn't really remember, neither do I heard it clearly.

I continue watch my show.

Until 7, prepared to go out.

Brother going out too, he asked me where I going.

I said Bugis and he stared at me and said, "Are you serious? 0.0"

By then I know he's going Bugis too.

We went, he meet his friend, I meet mine.

Yea, I met Jerrold.

We went to walk about, then went to buy koi.

My purpose of going bugis is cause of koi of cause. :D

Bought and then went to take mrt home.

I almost cried out, but I held back.

Home, talk to brother awhile, watch him surf for ipad cover.

He say he wanna buy ipad, but I don't know if he's serious. o.o

I climb up my bed, awhile later my parents came back home from malaysia.

Mother bought my favourite snack, I love her many many! (L)

The next day school reopens.

I wanted to sleep early, but yesterday night, I couldn't hold any longer.

I look through the messages he used to send me.

My tears, just flows out, eventually.

It just keeps flow and flow and flows.

Hugging the eeyore he gave me, looking at the keychain he gave me, the message he sent me.

Memories just flashback.

Last time when my phone rings, mostly is from him.

But now, none will be his.

I just miss everything about him.

The way he calls me baby.

The way he hugs me.

The way he tickles me.

The way he pampers me.

The way he sleeps next to me.

The way he cooks for me, feed me.

The way he always call me at night.

The way he ask me to sleep, remember cover blanket.

The way he says baby, iloveyou.

While I'm writing all these, my tears are flowing, and memories are coming back ..

I 10plus cried till 12plus, and I decided to stop and sleep.

Next morning I woke up at 5plus.

All along, I kept a so called 'dairy' of both of us.

Today is his birthday.

I wrote things in, I've so much to write, but I'm running out of time.

So I prepared and went to school.

I asked his sister to help me pass to him.

But I doubt he'll even bother to touch nor look at it.

Today school was, normal.

First lesson bio, Alvin asked me, "Eh, you and Yulun stead ah?"

I said no.

He keep pester me, keep ask me have anot.

All the way, my answer was, no.

In the past, I'll proudly say yes, but now, everything changes.

When I told my darling about I cried yesterday night, I almost cry, but I held back.

I've to hold back everything.

I know, cry out it's better than keeping inside.

Keeping inside only makes you feel more uncomfortable, bad.

He wanted me to suffer, I'll just listen to him ..

When it's 12pm, my friend said, "This timing I'll be home sleeping."

When I heard that, I thought to myself, "This timing I'll be at his house, hugging him."

I saw him two times today, but I didn't look at him.

I didn't dared, I didn't want to, even though I wanted to see him ..

After school and I came back home, wash my bag.

I use too much bleach, now my bag is white and pink colour, uneven. Lol.

I then came to use my brother's laptop to watch show.

I've two things I wanna say that's why I came to post.

Firstly, he removed me from facebook.

I don't know why.

He ownself tell me, "Be friends", and he removed me.

Like seriously, what have I done to deserve all these craps.

Now I know, it wasn't totally my fault.

He's not reponsible for his words and actions, not me.

I did everything I can, but no one appreciates it.

I just received a text from Hilda.

She said that bastard don't want to take it and his mother ask me to take it back cause it's mine.

Seriously, what's inside wasn't my things, it was all your fcuking beloved son's!

What's the fcuking problem with all these people.

Whatever I do, everyone takes me as a devil.

No one cares how I feel, no one cares about me at all.

Yea, some will say, "I care."

What's the meaning of care? It isn't just by using mouth to say it.

Sorry I offended some of you.

Yea, I'm just a loser, a failure, a bitch.

When I needed him the most, he left me.

I know, I couldn't make him stay, but it wasn't my choice isn't it!?

Whatever I do, is wrong and wrong and wrong and wrong and wrong, all the way!!

Don't you people know how it feels like being me?

Everyone thinks I'm cheerful, because I will joke with them.

But no one could ever sees through me, see through that I am actually not feeling any good inside ..

This anger in me is making me damn hurt seriously ..

I couldn't turn to anyone ..

No one being there for me ..

Everything just feel sucks to the max.

No one, no one would ever want to feel how I am feeling right now.

I feel like exploding! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRG!

Why, why must they all treat me this way ..

I'm going insane, soon ..............

"Never let 16th's fade away .."

In the end, he still lets it ...

I miss you ..

2011-06-22T12:31:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Last saturday morning woke up, prepare and went to work.

Time pass so slow, especially without boyf.

There's not much people too, so had been kinda slack from 3plus to 5 and off work.

Went home, buy dinner for brother and myself.

Whole day never eat, gastric pain. ._.

Ate already, brother siao, order one set of mac.

We shared it, while we were studying.

Around 7plus(?), boyf came back from malaysia.

Happy~

Like I said, I'll sort things out with him, I did, everything seems fine.

And he very last minute.

He said he wanted his anniversary present, like tomorrow, which is sunday.

So when he went to sleep, I was awake the whole night, preparing.

After that I went to sleep awhile, 2hours(?).

Woke up, continue do do do.

Heng can finish in time.

So I went to bath, prepare and went out with parents.

As usual, went to eat.

Ate already, went to take mrt down to find boyf.

Met, and went up his house.

His parents at home, feel so awkward and extra. x.x

Put the box at boyf's room, and letter I hide somewhere. :3

He always anyhow talk, make me so worried and scared until I cried. Tsk.

At his house till 10 and his father drove me home.

Thanks ^^.

Home bath and I forgot what I did.

Monday early morning woke up, bath and prepare and went to boyf's house, again.

He asked me to do so. ):

Reached, stayed at living room watch tv, he's sleeping, his sister playing computer.

Until 11plus he woke up and came out and he scolded me.

He say I reach never call him. Sad.

Don't wish to disturb his beauty sleep mah~

He went to bath, I use computer awhile.

He then on a show, we watched it together.

Aiya, the middle part I don't wanna say, makes me cry. ):

In the end we okay already, they going eat sushi, with their parents.

I don't want to go, everytime go is his parents pay pay pay, I feel guilty. x.x

both boyf and Yufei also say cannot, so I went.

I very full already boyf still ask me eat, until I wanna vomit.

After that went back his house awhile.

Until 9.30 wanted to go home, cause it's super late already.

I step out to living room, I want to say bye uncle, and he said.
"Wait awhile, I watch finish this show I drive you home."

I said dont want, later very ma-fan.

He said, "No no no, bu hui, deng yi xia hor."

So I went back boyf's room sit and wait lor.

Awhile later he went down.

I wait for boyf, he went to bath.

before I go I thank auntie and said bye to her.

So his father drove me home, again.

Home, went to bath and okay, I forgot what I did again.

Yesterday morning woke up, use computer awhile.

Then went to prepare.

Waited for darling to prepare too.

blahblahblah, done and we met at macpherson mrt.

We went to amk to eat sushi~ :D

Had a talk with her.

We ate 19 plates only leh, both of us add together 19 plate only.

I see other people, walan, plates like mountain, a lot sial.

I tell darling they purposely 2-3 days never eat then jitao come here eat is it.

Darling say ride horse have 1 week. LOL.

After ate finish we went to get KOI.

Go so far never buy KOI is siao one okay.

So I bought for me and my brother.

After we bought it, we went to amk hub walk walk awhile.

Went to buy some things.

And we took mrt back home.

Quarrel with boyf, almost broke off.

I cried and cried the whole night, I didn't manage to sleep, even when I tried to.

Reflected, thinking the whole night too.

I know I brought all these to myself.

All blames should be on me, because I'm in the most wrong and fault.

When yesterday he told me, "My friend said he rather me be friends with you than be together with you."

This sentence gave me a big impression.

This sentence had stuck in my mind the whole night.

Just by thinking of that, it really scares the hell out of me.

I'm not match with other girls, I understand.

but what I can match with them is, my heart and love for you.

It'll never be less than them, not a single bit.

I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

I'm sorry I don't know how to handle it well.

I'm sorry to show you a wrong way of doing things.

but I can tell you that, my love for you is true, I swear.

I'll never cheat on you, your love, your money.

If I wanted to, I'll be doing it 2 months ago, there's no need to wait till now.

I already need you, your love like no tomorrow ...

When problems come, all words in the past doesn't count, that's human nature.

but I'm gonna do it in a different way.

boyf, remember last saturday, you called me, and you asked me.

"No matter what happen, can you promise me that you'll never let me go?"

And of cause, I said.

"No matter how much hurt, how much I suffer, how miserable, how bad it is, I'll never let you go, I promise you."

Remember that?

Yea, I'm gonna keep that promise, I'll NEVER let you go.

I can understand how he is feeling right now, even though he said I don't.

That anger, that tiredness, that sadness, I understand it all.

Yea, I'm being selfish, being greedy.

but there's no wrong of afraid of losing you, no wrong that I needed all your love isn't it?

Or is it a crime?

Yea, I agree I see things the wrong way.

Push me, make me to see the correct way would you?

I need you by my side, I need your love.

I'm sorry, everyone deserves a second chance isn't it?

Please forgive me, forgive for what I've done wrong.

I just wish you will come back ...

back like how we used to ...

There's a lot I wanted to say, yet I don't know how to express ...

I'm sorry boyf ....

2011-06-17T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

Wednesday stayed at boyf's house until 8plus and went home.

Yesterday morning he went to malaysia with his family.

Well, to be frank, I feel uneasy, without him around.

Morning woke up, went to pay my phone bill.

And I just receive one more today, and the bill was like 400plus. -.-

My working money is all gonna spend on my phone bill.

back to story, after paying, went to ntuc to buy mushroom soup and golden mushroom.

Just suddenly feel like drinking it.

Home and went to watch show awhile, and went to sleep.

Until 4plus wake up continue watch show until 5 went to bath.

Awhile later brother came back home and he asked me to study with him.

Since I've nothing to do, so I did.

but half of it was he forced me to. Lol.

So we studied, awhile focused, awhile laugh like hell.

Until 10 we pack up and went to our room.

I came to use computer awhile and off to bed.

I couldn't sleep, think cause I slept in the afternoon.

So I rewatch shinee hello baby! :D

Haha, they never fail to make me smile and laugh. (:

Watch until 12plus, decided to sleep.

So I turn here and there, listen to song, and tried to sleep.

The whole day I was missing him, the feeling that I don't know how to express.

Kinda like, lost of something, didn't do something, sad, angry, all mixed together.

It just feel sucks, that's all I know.

Today morning brother suddenly climb up my bed and he asked me whether I got go out anot.

I shake my head, I was still half asleep.

He then asked me to accompany him go see doctor.

And he decided to stay home study the whole day.

So we went to see doctor.

See finish and we went to eat mac.

And I saw Jerry&Desmond and their friends.

Ate finish and we went to ntuc again to buy mushroom soup and golden mushroom.

Home and I went to sleep.

I tried to, but I don't manage to do so.

So I woke up, watch my brother play PS3, went to cook mushroom soup for him, and myself.

Until 4plus he again, forced me to study with him.

So I did.

Until 5plus, he said he lie down awhile, call him in 5mins.

So I continue to write my notes, and 10mins later I woke him.

He went back to sleep.

Until 6 I went to wake him again.

He then asked me what I wanted to eat.

I said mac cause I wanted the cup.

He said he don't want, in the end he called pizza.

Wednesday at boyf's house, they just called pizza and today my brother ordered.

We ate, and watched 'Priest'.

After watching, back to study.

Again, laugh like hell, then focused again.

Now he's memorizing things, so I came to post awhile.

Well, I feel so sucks right now.

A feeling of sadness, angriness.

I just feel like he's lying to me all along.

I think I should have a talk to him when he's back, tomorrow. /:

And tomorrow I still have work, my god.

Alrights, that's all for today.

Loves.

2011-06-15T15:00:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

Finally I can post.

I thought I couldn't anymore and got so fed up.

But thanks to Yufei, she told me can just skip the identify thingy.

I know I'm dumb. (:

Alrights, what happen those days kinda forgot already.

I'm currently at my precious sotong boyf's house.

Using his computer to post awhile, while he sits next to me and lighting candles(?). Lol.

Hmms, something bad happen.

Well, maybe I should say a lot of bad things happen.

Especially problem with boyf. /:

I feel so sucks seriously.

I got this feeling in me, that I couldn't get rid of it ever since I'm with him.

I don't know why.

Man, I just feel like banging into the wall.

Okay, shall not say upset things, for now.

I'm currently working at Downtown, Just Acia.

For this holiday only I think, after that I'm not sure.

Afraid of my N level, I don't think I can pass though. /:

Got one time boyf and all his family came down to find me. LOL.

I'm totally shock, my hands keep shiver.

But, thanks for his surprise too, that brights up my day.

Yesterday was kinda happy day for me.

Cause I got to spend almost whole day with my dearest boyf. :D

We were watching Final Destination, blahblahblah.

His mother treated me eat dinner, which is that sotong ask me to go eat with them de. Tsk.

After that went back his house and brought his dogs down.

They are cute. ^^

Awhile later went back his house play audi with Yufei.

It's been so long ever since I got to play audi.

My laptop cannot play already, sad but can keep me away from online games. ^^

Boyf's father then send me home, which is also his idea. ._.

Home and bath and sleep.

Morning wake, bath everything and came down to his house.

Tomorrow is our anniversary, and he going Malaysia with his family.

Sad die. ):

Cause I'm gonna so miss him.

Okay, my ears is gonna burst soon, he is blasting his music. ._.

I think I will just post until here.

Will post again, :D .

Loves.

2011-05-19T20:09:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back to post.

Sunday went to eat with parents as usual.

After that went to cut hair.

The auntie asked me to cut bangs, but I scare later I regret, so I didn't.

After that went home and to grandma house.

Monday woke up at 12 and went to prepare.

Meet Jessie at mrt and we went down to Sengkang to find Yufei.

Meet already and they went to eat, I accompany them.

They ate finish and went to Yufei's house.

Her house dog is damn cute lor, pong pong one. LOL.

borrowed her computer and went in audi awhile.

It's been so long ever since I last audi-ed.

Then went in Yufei's room and make a heart shape made of beads.

Yulun came home awhile later, like wtf.

Around 6 me and Jessie went off, we went back to Aljunied.

Went to grandma house and waited for uncle to prepare.

So we went to Tampines to recontact my line.

My line 25 March jiu 2 years already, I don't know and I kept on sms.

Kao, bill 200plus. x.x

Recontact and uncle bought me iphone 4! :D

White colour some more, like super nice lah!

Thanks uncle. (:

Home and asked brother to help me to move my previous text and things into iphone 4.

Tuesday was Vesak Day.

Went to baibai as usual on this day with parents, and went to eat.

Done and we went to st geng.

At there waited for Yvonne, Peng and binbin to arrive.

While waiting mother want to talkbox Yvonne. HAHA.

Like funny only lah.

They reached and we went to take mrt down to vivo.

We then waited for Gary to arrive.

Met up and we went to walk around.

Went up to gv to buy tickets, we bought ' Priest '.

Then we went to eat, Hongkong food.

Ate finish and we went to Toyrus.

The photo up there, that's binbin.

It's kinda, weird(?), cause I took it secretly, just a flash, that's why.

It was so much fun and laughter!

They will never failed to make me laugh like one stupid idiot. HAHA.

We then went to the top, memories then started to come back ..

They smoke and after that we went to Pet Lovers to see dogs.

They are so cute!

And there reminds me of me and darling at there buy hamsters. Hmms.

We went back to gv and they went to buy snacks and went in.

The movie is quite nice lah, still can accept.

All didn't laugh leh, only me and Yvonne keep gong wu gong bo then keep laugh quietly. HAHA.

After watching and went to buy my screen protector.

It's super nice lor, bought the diamond one. :3

Then went to search around for cover that is eeyore one, but don't have.

So I bought a poker dots one, it's nice nah, thanks yvonne for buying for me (: .

We then went home.

Took purple line with binbin while the three of them took green line back to Aljunied.

Alighted at Serangoon and Jerrold accompany me home.

Thanks (: .

Home and went to bath and sleep.

I keep flip here and there, but I just couldn't sleep.

Not first day already, nowadays I keep like this.

Wednesday went school, see result. Sigh.

Don't mention already.

Home and watch show awhile and went to take a short nap.

Woke up, went to bath.

brother actually want walk to mac to eat, but we were so lazy that we U turn back and called delivery.

It's kinda long ever since I ate mac.

Ate finish and went to use computer awhile, and Yulun called.

Talk talk talk until 11plus and he say he going sleep so we kup.

Awhile later he called again and say he couldn't sleep, same goes for me.

Today late day, went school and had house meeting.

After that went back class for lesson.

Until english lesson, when I got my paper, I lied on the table.

Mr Chin came to me and said what happen to me, are you upset?

I said no, but actually I am.

From then, I couldn't resist myself from crying.

My tears just flows out.

Took tissue from Liru and I even used up the whole packet.

Lying on the table, I just kept on crying.

Yulun came up to fifth floor and cheer me up.

Thanks.

Went in toilet and sat on the floor and just cry and cry.

Awhile later went back to class, lie down on table and cry again.

Math teacher came I also lie on table and cry.

When I wanted to reply text, Miss Haryati walk pass actually wanted to confiscate my phone.

She was shock when I look at her.

She asked me out and went to toilet and asked me what happen.

My tears just keep flow and flow and flow, non-stop.

Thanks Miss Haryati for your concern, your words, your ear.

Went back class then and my tears just couldn't stop.

I cried for 3 periods, it's almost 2 hours already.

2.10 already and it's time to go home.

Went home and cooled myself down.

Tried to go to sleep.

but, it's like, crying for almost 2 hours also doesn't help me to get into a really peaceful sleep.

It's still the same, couldn't sleep, even if I force myself to.

Fed up, woke up and continue to do something.

Done and went to bath.

And went to watch show awhile, until now and I came to post.

I don't know what else can I write.

My eyes are super swollen.

Guess I will try to sleep early tonight.

I feel so so so weak right now.

So lost, I don't know what to do.

Sigh, shall end here bah, post next time ..

Nights ..

2011-05-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back, once again to post rubbish.

Yea, bet no one is reading my blog already.

Well, 8 May was mother's day right? I think.

Happy mother's day to my mother! :D

And of cause, rest of the mothers in the whole entire world.

but instead, companied my brother to Orchard to buy clothes.

He win already lor.

His girlf came back from malaysia and he jitao ask me go home myself and help him take home his things and he went to find his girlf.

Yea I know, human nature.

Went home and wanted to use his laptop to watch show.

but Jerrold came down to find me.

So, we walked to paya lebar, and back home again.

Wanted to be home cause I wanted to watch "Fast&Furious: Tokyo Drift." on channel 5.

Home, bathed and went to watch.

After watching, wanted to watch Little Red Riding Hood but, graphic not so clear, so forget it.

Went to watch other shows.

I've watched Resident Evil 1-4, woah, it's nice man!

Re-watch Despicable Me and other shows.

but looks like I've nothing to watch right at this moment. Hmms.

Will try to find something to watch, if not I'm gonna be bored at home.

And, I got new bed, weeeeeeeeeeeee~

Thanks to mother, she bought it for me. :D

Well, as for exam papers, I think I really screwed it.

POA really cannot make it, just somehow somewhat bomb answer in.

What else happen, hmms.

Ohyea, and we had tk for two days.

It was Yvonne's father's don't know what.

Went in the night for those two days cause of exam.

And something else happen which I don't wish to post it up, (: .

Sigh, just wish to be alone for now.

Tomorrow then continue post.

Nights all, love.

2011-05-06T20:30:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

It's been a week plus ever since I last posted.

Exams nowadays.

English and chinese paper had already done.

Well, kinda hard(?).

Chinese paper, I copied wrong paragraph and I think 2marks fly. x.x

Well, after that Labour day.

Went to Ikea to see beds.

I'm going to buy a new bed and soon I'll have my own room soon. :D

Like that I can sleep in peace without my brother keep disiao me!

but I'll miss playing with them.

My brothers are buying bed too.

And, mother bought me contact lens!

Thanks mother, iloveyou ttvm!

Done math paper 2, ss, geo, chemistry, listening compre.

I think every paper is screwed seriously.

Math paper 2, heng not so hard, ahgar ahgar still able to do.

I super hate doing graph question.

but I've to choose 2 out of 3 question.

And there's one question which they ask you to write in 'x' terms.

Which, I'm totally blank.

So I've no choice and to sketch out the graph.

And I almost didn't hand up the last question!

Teacher keep stand beside me, and I'm trying to tie the papers together, my hand keep shiver.

Heng I found out and ask Mr Faizal to give me back the paper. x.x

After that ss, me, Liru, Emily and Leena was standing outside classroom.

While the others were sitting inside.

Kyrene, Leah all ask us why are we standing outside, and we told them we kanna "punished".

And they believe you know! HAHA.

And something happen, joke of the day sial.

Cause the next day, those not taking A maths will come later at 10.30 for listening compre.

And it starts at 11.

Mr Faizal wrote the notes on the board to remind us.

While he writes, we four idiots were reading what he is writing.

Very loud leh, the whole class can hear.

And when he wanted to write, "Please report ..." , he cancelled away the report and wrote.

"Please call yourself 'parrots'."

Wth, we read it out loud leh!

We whole class laughed. HAHA.

Memorable moments, ilovethem lah! :D

And, I already give up on combine humans.

Even if I pass my geo, which is impossible, my ss also cannot make it. Sigh~

Today geo, got one part I wrote quite long leh, so happy.

but sad part is, I think I'm writing rubbish, HAHA.

After that recess, me, husband, Emily and Liru as usual went to eat already and back to class.

We are suppose to revise, and guess what?

We link until 'Hitman reborn'.

Wtf right.

Thanks to Liru lor.

Suddenly say bitumen (it's something that is use for surfacing road).

And she said it sound like 'Hitman'.

Well, I see no link in that but spelling quite similar.

From there, she and Emily started to talk about it.

And eventually, I joined in. LOL.

Leena cuter, she talked about spongebob, then link to winx club, then to tom&jerry.

We talk talk talk, and I shout say I thought we revising chemistry!?

And we stopped.

Not a minute later, Emily say, "I can't resist in talking, I very tempted to talk sial."

Laughdieme, and we started to talk again. HAHA.

Just love being with them, with them around, I love going to school.

They just bring laughter to me in the morning.

As for afternoon and night? Don't mention it~

And there's this question, I've been lookin at the summary notes that Miss Ng gave us.

I thought that one won't come out leh.

before the paper starts Leah still ask me "This must learn right?".

And it actually came out at both MCQ and Section b. x.x

Faint seriously, a lot I've studied also never come out lor!

I've to count on bio already seriously.

Next week, math paper 1, bio and POA.

Die ttvm for POA.

This whole half year I totally don't know what the teacher is teaching leh.

First he teach doubtful debts, and I don't even know what is that.

I don't even know where to put, which account to open. x.x

How to pass for N level!?

Everyone is so good, they have 4 weeks of June holiday.

For me, I mean us, only have 2 weeks of June holiday!

Why? Cause for the first and last week of holiday we've to go back school for extra lessons.

It's killing me~

Just hope someone can appear right now and save my POA.

Have been at home for the whole day, super bored!

And I feel so restless, have been sleeping for a long time.

I wish someone could really sit down with me, and I'll just pour out my feelings to him/her.

It's been hiding within me for quite some day.

bet no one is reading my blog for now since I've not post for so long.

Haha, oh well.

I'm just bored at home and came to post.

Sayonara. (:

2011-04-25T21:35:00.003+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'm back, once again.

And I just found out that I've neglect my blog for like almost a month!

Ohboyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Sorry my dear blog, I'm so lazy to post nowadays, not so interesting.

I'm stoning at home and I suddenly thought of my blog.

Hmms.

What shall I type.

Don't expect me to type out what happen in the past 1 month now!

I can tell you frankly, I forgotten.

Everyday is just school school school.

but I've some great moments with Liru, Emily, Cordelia, and my husband Leena. ^^

And, especially someone.

Darling and Leena should know who bah.

Tomorrow is my oral exam, thursday is english paper and I still can at here post blog!

Pathetic me right.

I really at get anything into my freaking mind.

Especially POA, gg seriously.

我一头雾水。x.x

Good luck to all my friends, darlings, sweeties, and of cause to him and myself!

Okay, I've nothing to type liao.

If have, I'll come to post again, provided if I'm not lazy. HAHA.

Love all~ :D

2011-03-27T20:14:00.007+08:00

Hi earthlings.

I'mma back to post. :D

Thursday ah, shiat, I forgotten.

And I just remembered I've 4 chinese compo to complete.

Argh. x.x

Friday, morning went school, first lesson jiu POA liao. After that chemistry.

Teacher asked Alvin to sit beside me.

Thanks to husband lor, she never go school, no one sit on my left.

Alvin very irrtating lah.

My staple on the table, and he go press press press until no "bullet" liao. ._.

I took off my SHINee ring on put it on the table cause a bit irrtating, hard to write.

And he took my ring, he wore, and say, "eh, 借我带一下，我 after school 才换你。"

I stare at him for a second, and orh, -back to screen- .

Awhile later, he keep smack my hair, my pony tail.

I keep tsktsktsk, he keep smack smack smack for no reason.

And he say, "我很喜欢弄女孩子的头发，我不懂为什么。"

I also stare at him and think to myself, "Siaopeh. ._."

Awhile later he asked me.

Alvin: Eh, 你跟你的 boyf 多久了。

Me: 俩个月多 lor, zuomo leh?

Alvin: 问 lah, 不可以 meh.

Me: Orh.

Alvin: Then 你们 zuomo.

Me: 我不懂。

Alvin: 讲 leh.

Me: 我真的不懂。我也想知道。

Alvin: Just 讲而已。我很 curious.

Aiya, the conversation abit long, don't want type out liao.

After that recess.

After school went home, bath blahblahblah.

Went down to bedok to meet Hilda.

She brought a stitch cushion for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

She say she that time say she catch dao and wanted to pass to me but she keep forget.

but I don't remember she told me that before. o.o

Anyway, thanks Hilda!!

Love it ttm, will hug it when I sleep, hiak :3 . I called my mother and she didn't pick up her phone.

I've parent's meeting at night, but my mother went malaysia. ._.

So I asked Emily to help me inform Mr Faizal that I'm not attending.

Met Hilda and Audrey and we went to sing kbox.

Hilda asked me, "if you were in the situation like me, who will you choose."

I answered, of cause I'll choose my own boyf rather than my ex.

Even though my ex have a lot of good points, treat me damn freaking good, and my own boyf doesn't do that to me, I'll still choose my boyf. Why? Just simply cause I know, once break means break.

If I break up with my boyf now, and get back to my ex, things ain't the same anymore.

The feelings won't be the same.

And then? End up also break up and regret why didn't I cherish my boyf that time.

Humans are all like that, 等到失去后，才来后悔。

No matter how long you and your ex are together, things won't be the same after a break up.

Let bygones be bygones.

but most of all, the main reason is, because I love my boyf.

She nod her head and we went in to sing kbox.

Until 8, they went to downtown, while me?

Hilda told me things, and I felt damn down, went to took bus instead.

Home and use com awhile, and went to sleep.

Saturday, Audrey suddenly talk to me. blahblahblah.

She and Hilda told me the same thing, "I think you two should really meet up & talk".

Yes, I know, I know we should.

but guys, I don't the courage and confidence to do so.

Why? because I'm so so so afraid, things won't come out good.

You know what I mean isn't it?

Yea, I super don't wish that to happen.

If that happens, I'll be damn lost seriously.

Went to bath and continue to use com.

brother liar!

He say want go sing kbox one, in the end he told me he got sore throat, don't want go liao.

5plus he went to sleep awhile.

6plus going 7 I woke him up, we prepare and went to Marina Square.

For? Dinner! :D

He treat me eat "Just Asia".

First time eating, everytime first time is he bring me to eat one.

Like "Fish Market" and "MOF".

Free flow of drinks and ice cream sial. o.o

Ate finish and went to Esplanade see see.

It's "Earth Hour" yesterday.

Esplanade had switched off lights, not all but some.

It's dark, but can see.

It's super romantic, it's the best time for you and your boyf to go there.

There's a performance, which a guy is singing, don't know who.

Stood there and watch awhile.

I'm already damn down, and there's something that makes me triple down.

Guess what? There's a couple standing in front of me, hugging each other.

It's like super damn sweet can. Saw them look into each other eyes, I can feel the love between them, I'm envy.

I was about to burst into tears, but my brother there, can't.

Went to Marina and walk around. bought a CD, "Homecoming".

We then went home.

brother asked me whether should he buy bag, or wait for ipad 2 to come out.

I also don't know. o.o

Took mrt home and watch "Homecoming". Well, to me, it's not really a nice show, kinda boring.

Watch finish and went to sleep.

Today morning woke up early in the morning 6plus.

And guess what, I jump up and was looking for my phone.

Why? I got so anxious that I kept tell myself, "SIAO LIAO, yesterday I sleep I forgot to put alarm. x.x!" Keep search my phone, pull my bag and then I suddenly stop for a second.

And I thought, "Eh wait, today not sunday meh -.-?"

-puts my bag down and went back to sleep- .

I don't know what happen to me sial.

At that time, I was having a dream, a bad dream, a nightmare.

I got so scare and frighten that when I woke up, my heart beats damn fast.

At that moment, I thought of him ..

Well, I dreamt of him too .. Sigh.

Went to watch tv awhile and went to prepare.

Same as usual, went to outram there and eat lunch with family.

Ate finish, and went to great world city as my brother want to take passport photo.

While waiting, my mother asked me.

Mother: 你跟你的朋友到底还有没有在一起？

Me: -silence for a second- , er, 有(?), 没有(?). Aiya, budong lah.

Mother: Then 为什么你们没有一起出去 liao? 我也没有看你一直按电话.

Me: bu zhi dao lah, -walks to other place-

She keep pester me for the answer sial, yet I don't know what to reply her. ._.

It's the second time she asked me already. Argh. ._.

My brother took his photo and we went to take mrt back home.

Home and com awhile, watch brother play psp.

Then went to on "Homecoming" for my mother to watch. I think she finds it boring too. Ha.

Went to hawker to eat dinner with family.

My father never eat, my mother follow him, end up only me and my brother eat. -.-

They went to my grandma house first.

Only sunday I can't skip meal cause with parents, ._. .

Ate finish and me and brother came back home first.

He went to bath, while I came to post half of it.

My turn to bath and I just came out not long and continue to post.

Today is 27th.

Yeps, it's the third month that we know each other.

Soon later it's gonna be our third month anniversary.

Will he be able to remember and wish me? I doubt so ..

Asked my mother to help me pay my phone bills as she's taking her salary next week.

Hopefully my line will be back.

If not I'm seriously damn bored sial.

but, used to it liao, hehe.

And my stupid flu doesn't want to go away!

Later my brother thought I crying like that. Tsk.

Should I uninstall audi and install maple? Hmms.

but both also like boring only leh, tsk.

Aiya, fan si ren lah.

Shall post until here. Loves.

( The stupid post don't let me clutch all together. -.- )

2011-03-23T20:25:00.007+08:00

Annyeong earthlings ^^.
Last sunday stay home whole night with brother.
Monday, it's time to go back school again.
Hmms, nothing much also lah.
Time table changed, not used to it.
After school went home.
Home and continue to watch my korea drama.
Watch finish what I did? I totally forgotten. ._.
Sleep and tuesday went school.
I'm like super tired sial.
blahblahblah, after school went bugis with Liru, Emily and husband.
Yeps, it's the four of us again.
They wanted to eat mac, but they change mind to eat long john.
We can't stop laughing de sial.
Eat finish we went to iluma de comic connection/collection, I always forgot to see.
For? Of cause it's kpop thingy.
Liru wanted to go there.
And she saw F.T Island's ring.
Her eyes went big and she showed it to me.
Emily bought it for her cause she owe her a birthday present.
Husband bought a ez sticker for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Of cause, no need say also know it's my hubby KimJongHyun. :D!
My old one like going spoil liao, so~ HIAK.
After looking around we went to bugis junction de one book shop.
I forgot what's the shop name already, kim semo semo de.
Don't know who want go there see semo, me and Liru went to see kpop one. (L)
Saw a book, wanted to buy it, but didn't.
Why? Cause, I don't know if we will be able to meet again ..
Oh well.
We went back iluma.
Again? Yeps, but this time is go there buy koi! :D
Someone say will buy me koi once a week leh, happy. ^^
buy liao, Emily went to take bus, the rest of us went to take mrt home.
Liru alighted at kallang and me and husband took to macpherson.
Walk halfway brother called, and he was behind of me. LOL.
Went up home and he went to bath then my turn.
He play PS3, while me?
Cooking macaroni for him cause he say it's raining, don't want go hawker centre. Tsk.
Drank my koi and went to do things.
Do liao jiu off com sleep.
Today morning went school.
9.30 jiu recess liao leh!
Kao, so damn early lah, some more we 2.45 then end school leh.
Wednesday is math day liao.
We from 1.35 start math until 4.
2.45-4 is remedial.
Tomorrow got math test and english test leh, can jump down liao.
Alvin is irritating lah sial.
Me: -stood up, took skirt, walk to back door-
Alvin: Eh sexy, 去哪里。
Me: -quiet for a moment- , 去跳楼 lah.
Alvin: 这里跳 leh, 我要看。
Me: Gnd. -walks off-
-5 minutes later-
Me: -walk back to class from back door-
Alvin: Eh sexy, 你去哪里。
Me: -diamdiam awhile- , 跳楼 LAH!
Alvin: -laughs- .
He siaopeh one seriously. ._.
but he reminds me of ______, darling should know lah dui bu dui.
Cause they two really very alike.
Study math study my head want burst liao.
4plus we went home.
Home and lie down on bed awhile.
Until 7 went to bath, watch tv awhile, and here I am to post.
It's 9plus now and I haven't study my math ._.
Well, I came to post cause I want to write something.
Those who want to contact me, please do not sms me for the time-being.
Why?
Just because my poor line had been cut, didn't pay the bill. :P
but I still can receive incoming calls.
So, if you've anything to tell me, please give me a call instead of sms.
because I'm unable to reply, for now.
I'll tell you again if my line is back. (:

Frank speaking, I don't feel anxious of getting my line back.

You will be wondering why.
Cause I'm used to my phone not ringing liao, HOR? ^^
Man, my head is pain-ing.
Flu and cough for like don't know how long liao.
been thinking what if one day I faint on roadside. Haha.
Random photos from Audrey, took from her already.
I'm gonna do my things and sleep.
Anything please call me! ^^
Nights.

2011-03-20T16:30:00.004+08:00

Hi earthlings.
I'mma back to post again, at home nothing do.
Thursday actually going out with Liru, Emily and husband.
but the day before, Liru moody.
Then last minute cancelled.
Stayed home, do what?
Watched korea drama.
The guy is damn shuai and cute lor!! ><

Re-polish my nails while watching.

Watched for the whole afternoon.

Until 6plus went to bath and 7plus went to buy dinner for brother.

Home and continue to watch again.

Watch until 10plus, went to use com awhile and sleep.

Like no life right, yea I know.

Friday morning woke up, went to shop and save awhile.

There's one guy, those a bit old already kind, he walk beside me.

And he suddenly say want make friend with me.

Kao, I jitao chua tio and quickly walk to crowded places.

Damn freaking scare, and he's the first one who came ito my mind ..

Went shop and save awhile, buy things and then walkd home.

I walked pass the place when that time valentine's dy, he light the candles for me.

Which say, "I love you".

It makes me super sad seriously.

Sigh Nothing to do and continue watching my korea drama. :D

Until 4plus brother called and asked me to go watch movie with him.

Since nothing to do so I agreed.

Went to bath and prepare.

He came home awhile and we took mrt down to dhoby.

We watching 7.30 show, and we 7.23 like that then reached dhoby.

And we still have to head to cathay.

Ask him go out early he don't want, keep at home tu tu tu.

Went in, heng haven't start.

but once we sit down, it start to show. LOL.

What show? Rango.

He say he wanted to watch that.

And, it's not really a recommanded show.

It's super boring okay, too draggy.

After the show we went to eat mac.

Eat finish and went home.

Saturday, morning woke up and watch 1 episode of korea drama.

Went to bath and prepare.

Meeting Hilda and Audrey at Somerset at 12pm.

I'm late by 15 minutes. x:

Reached and we went to cineleisure.

Accompany them to eat.

Eat finish and we went up to kbox.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Sing sing sing, then went to take new print.

After that bus to dhoby.

They went there to play pump.

After playing, we went to walk around.

Then Audrey going off. Hilda meeting Roy and benny to watch movie.

Accompany Hilda to cathay and wait for them.

They reached and Hilda wanted to go back PS to meet Ace.

Meet liao, talk talk awhile and they wanted to go eat.

I wanted to go home, but they drag me along with them. ._.

They went to eat mac, and they were talking about Mau.

Well, Hilda and Mau had some problem.

Which, me and Hilda's problem are almost alike.

And we both felt almost the same.

We both Capricorn, maybe that's why bah.

benny's friend came mac to find him.

A guy and a girl, and the guy's name also call benny.

Why I know? Caus that guy suddenly say hi to me and ask what's my name.

He all the way smiling sial.

I also cannot smile much, only can use force to make myself smile, wonder if he'll get tired of it. After that they decided to watch show, which I can't as it's too late.

They wanted to watch a 9.30 show, in the end when they wanted to buy, it's sold out. LOL.

Gv no show watch, cathay also no show watch.

Gv, lots of memories of him.

My tears almost flow out, but I held back.

They went to the place where me, him, Mau, Roy and Hilda once played lan together.

They went there to play pool.

Which, I can't go in cause I'm only 16! ):

Had a bit of talk with Hilda.

I super feel like crying but I can't.

I know Hilda will cry too, don't want her sad, worried about her.

Wonder if she's okay right now.

They then decided to walk to bugis to play pool.

For me, I walked back to dhoby mrt, myself.

Hilda say benny they all wanted to accompany me to mrt de.

but, it's okay lah, I want to be alone for awhile too.

Thanks guys for occupying my day, if not I at home sure anyhow think.

Took mrt back home, bath and watch brother play PS3.

He playing GTA, and it kept say "Fcukyou" for a lot of times.

I was sitting behind my brother.

He suddenly turn to me and laugh. LOL.

Went into room and my elder brother asked me to play Monopoly Deal with him.

We played 3 rounds, and he only won me 1 round.

After playing, both of my brothers sleeping.

While me? I wanted to sleep, but I realize I can't.

I've been holding back my tears for so long, so so so so so long.

I let it all out yesterday night.

Cry and cry and cry, thinking of the days we had.

Sorry to my dear seal and stich for punching and crying on both of it.

Parents quarrelling again, which made me can't sleep.

Slept at around 3plus.

Today morning brother asked me go singpost with him to change our internet thingy.

The mobile spoiled, need change a new one if not I no internet use.

We 10 reached there, 10.30 then open. ._.

My brother say singtel fax the email to them already.

When he asked the person, the person say they haven't fax. ._.

Called singtel to fax again and they fax the wrong info. ._.

Waited and waited until 11plus then took mrt home.

Home rest awhile and went to prepare.

Went to eat lunch with parents as usual.

Finish eating and went home, cause no place to go.

Home and I came to post.

I'm so bored being at home.

And I miss him.

Shall ask Audrey to give me the photos we took.

Tomorrow school reopen again, sian.

Study study study.

I've so much to write, but I forgot and don't know how to write.

I feel so lonely.

And he once said he won't leave me alone.

Sigh.

Head going burst soon ..

End here bah.